Once In A Lifetime

☯ Sixth Year Anniversary Part 3 ☯

****************Cyn POV***********

Why Can't I Just Get A Break? I See Them Enough But Why Only Me. Erica Held Me And Soon They Vanished But I Know It Wouldn't Be For Long. She Helped Me Into The Tub And Cool Me Off. The Shaking Starts To Waroff When She Got In And Put Her Arms Around Me.

" Will I Ever Be Normal Again?" I Ask But Mainly For Myself

" Normal Is Overrated Baby And Being Different Makes You Stand Out" Erica Says And I Don't Know How To Feel About That Statement. " Baby Being Normal Is Boring And We All Crazy...Except Domo Maybe * Laughing* But Crazy Or Not, I'll Be Right Here" She Says And Kiss My Cheek

" Do You Remember I Was Okay? When Medicine Wasn't A Big Deal Or We Were Straight Goof Balls?" I Ask And Faced Her

She Looks At Me With Her Beautiful Eyes And Smile. " Things Change But Yes And Those Days Were Our Sandbox Days. Baby How Do You Feel? You Don't Talk Much And I Don't Honestly Understand. I Am Not Gonna Lie To You And Say " Yes Baby I Understand And See What You See" But I Don't. This Is The First Time In Months We Have Been Even This Close Cyn" She Says And Starts To Well Up

" Well I Feel Lost At Times, Depressed, Hurt, And Feel Like I Am Slipping Into Black Hole Most Times. I Couldn't Love You The Right Way When I Don't Even Feel Loved And Happy. Its Hard. Their Death Took A Toll On Me And Those Men Are Still Gonna Pay. I Got To Sleep And See Mari So Happy But I Open My Eyes And Its All An Imagination. Sometimes Life Is Just Too Much. Thats How I Feel But It Has Nothing To Do With Y'all" I Told Her Being Completely Honest And It Feels Great. That Night Took Apart Of Me That Won't Come Back Or Leave Me Alone.

She Takes My Hand And Just Look At Me. No Kissing, Hugging, Or Smirk, Just Looking At Me. " I Never Knew Someone Can Go Through So Much Mentally And Still Be Strong And Brave. I've Been Hurt But I Was Weak. You Made Me Strong And I Am Here To Keep You Strong. Baby I Am Not Running Away Or Fucking You Over. I Am Hurt Too But This Has To Pull Through As A Family. We Can Do This Like Before. I Scratch Your Back And You Scratch Mine." She Said With A Smile I Can Never Forget

" Yea...Um I Might Have Fucked Up That Involves Mimi" I Said Scratching the Back Of My Neck

" What Did You Do Cyn?" She Ask Calmly And That Worries Me

" You Know The Family That Raul Took Her From And Finally Gave Up Looking?" She nods " Well The Agreement Was To Let Them See Once A Year For Her Birthday. I Agreed Because They Still Love Her And We Need Things To Put In Her Baby Book. Hers Is The Only One Empty And Last Month They Called Asking To Share Custody. So Me Being Petty Signed The Papers But They Only Want Her Twice A Month. I Am Such A Bad Parent" Not Looking Up Erica

I Just Wanted To Fair Because They Loved Her Too And Didn't Give Up Finding Her. Now That Everyone Knows Her And What She Looks Like, it Had To Come Out. They Were At The Fashion Show.

" Cyn Baby* Laughing* Don't Say That Because I Told Them Yes And To Call you Since You Weren't Talking To Me. They Are The Ones That Has Joel Killers.  We Are Seeing Them And Its Just Up To Mimi If She Wants Them Around. Thats When The Papers Will Be Filed" She Says And It Felt Like A Relief Because I Might Be Out Pratice But I Need To Kick Some Ass

" What Would I Have Done Without You?"I Said And Smile At Her

" Chasing Hoes While Abby Be Like " Cynnn Noo She Got Aids And Crabs. I Am Not Joining In This Shit?!" * Laughing* Damn I Miss Her Ass" She Said

I Miss Her Too But After The Baby Recovery, She Left To Start Her Own Life And Calls Whenever She Can. I'll See My Girl One Day. Actually I Think She Is In Town. Her And China Hooked Up....I Think.

" You Know What I Miss?" I Faintly Ask As I Play With Her Fingers

" What Baby?" She Plays With My Ring

" This....Even Though I Fucked Up And Pushed You Guys Out, Deep Down This Is What I Wanted. It Isn't Even About Sex. I Just See Everything Dark And Gloomy. I Am Sorry For Going Crazy" I Said In All Honesty And Tears Because I Know She Feels Like I Don't Love Her But I Do. Its Just So Hard " I Love You Erica And I'll Never Yell Or Fuss At You Again. Please Know That" Crying Into Her Chest

" Shhhh* Rubbing My Back* Baby, God Put You Crazy But You Are Crazy For A Reason And All I Want Is My Crazy Ass Wife Good And Healthy As She Can Get. You Are Daddy Remember" She Said Smirking And I Blushed Hard. I Do Miss That Too But I Don't Want Sex To Be A Major Part Of Our Lives And Romance. I Might Take Her Painting Again.

She Liftd My Leg Around Her And Put Her Hand On My Back. " Now Imma Show You Who How Mami Can Get Down For The Night. I Am Daddy Tonight"

She Pulled Me In Between Her Legs And I Knew It Was On And Popping When Her Lips Smashed On To Mine And She Smacked The Fuck Of My Eyes.

I Might Not Be A Yellow Bone After Tonight

Yessss...The Sex Scene Is Coming But I Had To Do The Emotional Love First. Do You Think Mimi Is Gonna Accept Her First Family Back Into Her Life? Will Erica And Cyn Be The Same...My Goal Is To Get 10 Thousand Votes...Vote And Comment Below What You Think....

P.s Instead Of Quit Writting...I Am Expanding My Horizons And Wrote My First Beyoncè Book...Plz Go Check It