Mister Villain

CHAPTER FORTY-TWO

He didn't know if it was normal to fear something when he still could not see it and then drive towards it head-on without even giving it a second thought kapag andun na siya.

RJ told himself before all this na he was going to re-introduce himself as a "friend" to her but it seems na he just could not keep himself from outright flirting with her kahit paano niya i-contain.

And now, it seems he has made it awkward for Maine.

Gusto niya mag-sorry but found himself transfixed at just looking at her.

This was only the second time he was able to observe her features so closely and both times she had her eyes closed.

Pinigil niya ang kamay from reaching over and smoothing out the crease in her forehead or playing with her nose or rubbing her cheeks or maybe even touching her lips.

It took too much of his self-control kaya tumigil siya from staring at her and stared back at the night sky.

He knew the temptation would be too great and baka bigla niyang halikan ito.

And that would scare her, he was sure.

Makipagtitigan nga lang sa kanya e ramdam na ramda ni RJ na natakot ito e.

"Pace yourself, man. Pace yourself" he repeated in his head.

He had to gain her trust first. He had to become a friend of hers first. He had to show her who he really was first.

Madami pang "firsts" na kailangan mangyari.

He closed his eyes because he was sure na his eyes would just go back to her face and that was not good for his "nearly extinct self-control". Sigurado siya na kung magkakaroon nang pagkakataon e hindi malayo na halikan niya talaga to.

And thinking of kissing her made him start to think of that one amazing kiss they had.

Kahit na galit na galit ito noon at inis na inis siya dahil idine-deny niya pa rin sa sarili niya nung panahon na yun kung ano ang nararamdaman niya e alam niya na that kiss was electric.

His lips touched hers and he just had to dive in and greedily go after more.

She was so soft against him, so sweet, and –

"PACE YOURSELF! PACE YOURSELF! PACE YOURSELF!" his brain rapidly reminded him "STOP GOING THERE AND PACE YOURSELF!"

Huminga siya nang malalim para kumalma at nag-isip kung kailangan na ba niya gayahin ang kapatid at mag-yoga na din nang matuto siya nang patience.

Isn't it crazy how he could not wait to take this woman out of his life and now, all he wanted was to be near her?

Yung sa sobrang near e pag huminga ito, he would feel it right across his lips.

It's supposed to scare him how much he wanted her and really, when on his own, it did scare him.

Pero kapag kaharap niya ito, all that fear just went away.

What he wanted instead was to go after her.

He wanted her to be around him all the time, if possible.

He craved her presence the way some girls craved chocolate on their periods – like it was a life-saver, like it was going to change their whole life, like it was going to take away the pain.

At kanina nung makita niya ito, he just wanted to sit beside her on that sofa and breathe in the same air she was breathing in.

It made his heart jump.