The luckiest unlucky girl.

Chapter 2

Shazrays' POV

The weekend

"I know you miss me. I will never leave you!" he says. "You know what? I've been crying the whole night. You have no idea how bad it feels!" I say. "Yes love stop crying!" he says. "Do you love me?" I say. "Yes. I love you so much! I've been waiting for this moment Shazray." he says. He cups my face. My face was tear stained. "I'm sorry" I say. "Shhh. It's ok!" he says. "Why are you shaking me Adil?" I say in confusion. "Because it's school time" someone says. His lips didn't say anything. "Hey who's shaking me? Stop doing it?" I say. "Wake up!!!" someone says. "I'm awake can't you see?" I say. Suddenly I start feeling cold. My eyes open. Oh no that was a dream I blink again. My blanket was on floor and I see Alishba standing by my side. "Is your dream over now?" she says. "What the hell Alishba?" I say. "Get ready for school!" she yells. "Get the hell outta my room!" I say. Then I get off my bed.
I open the door of washroom. I turn the faucet on. Drip drop the water came out. I felt numb. I was only 13 years and already in love with a boy who's 15. I don't know why I am crazy for him. I I just I just love him. I am literally crying. I don't know what just happened. I don't know why I love him. I don't know what love is. Yet I think I am in love! Why? To love someone you have to be mature enough. I was only 13 years! And this? I just feel ugly. I don't know why. I just do..... The dream? Why did I dream this? I mean there's no point of him being in love with me? I mean? What? I'm such a mess!! 13 is fucking not the age of being in love! I am ashamed of myself. But again we do not have any power over our emotions. I shouldn't be ashamed of this. After all I am not doing anything haram. I shouldn't be ashamed. It's ok if I love him. But I will have to keep it to myself. Many times my besties tried to make me confess this love. But I couldn't. They were 15 and this was an easy task for them. But I was only 13 and so I couldn't admit it. I don't know why?
I stopped crying. I wash my face and get out of washroom.
I got ready for school, and came out from my room. I was not feeling anything. The day passed by. Milli kept on asking what was wrong with me. But I couldn't tell.
Mum saw me entering home. "Love, get ready. Guests are on their way!" she says. I gave her a kiss. I enter my room. I throw my bag on floor and jumped in my bed. Everything got darker and darker. I went in deep sleep.
My eyes opened a bit. And I hear loud voices. They're here!!!! I get out of my bed. I take a quick shower. Get ready. And I prepare myself to go downstairs.
This stupid smile!!! Oh no I can't smile!!! They'll think of me as a stupid foolish person! Oh no stop smiling shazray please? What the fuck!! Why can't I just stay normal?
Anyhow. Let's get downstairs. I meet everyone. I see him. We have an eye contact. But we don't talk as usual. He was ignoring me. I don't know why but he was. It made me feel awkward and so I leave the hall. I came upstairs in my room.
I cry again......
My hopes are shattered once again! I thought that this time, maybe this time we will talk. But I was wrong! I was so wrong! I'm not worth his single second!
My weekend is destroyed. He thinks of me as a foolish little girl. Just if he knew the truth...

Two years later....

"Yes. Biology (9700) Chemistry (9701) and Physics (9702)" I say. "Ok done." Milli says. So did Farwa. Yayyy!!! Finally in our A-Levels. "You must be very happy Shazray" Milli says. "Happy for?" I say confused. "Come on you're only 15 and are in your A-Levels!" Farwa says. I get a smile on my face. I take a deep breath. It was again about him. It's been 4 years. We talked only two times. 1st time when I received my official O-Level 2nd year result and 2nd time when I received my official O-Level 3rd year result! And never before or after.
We aren't connected anywhere. I only have viber account right now. But we don't talk.