MONTGOMERY 3 : If Only

Chapter 54

This is not the last chapter.

Simon's Side

"What the heck! They're brother and sister? Incest?"

Hindi ako makapaniwala. I'm with my siblings, nanuod kami ng pelikula na suggestion ni Carl. I thought it would be good because it's one of those fictional books turned to movie but I didn't like it.

I did not.

Actually, not because I'm a book lover which absolutely I'm not. Hindi din dahil hindi maganda ang pag kakagawa ng movie dahil aminin ko man o hindi, the effects were really outstanding.

It's just that..

I didn't like what happened between the main characters. I hate their conflict.

"Inexplain na kanina ni Clyde 'yan. They're not related.. kagagawan lang yon ni Valentine. They thought they are but they aren't." Rinig kong paliwanag ni Tulip.

Napahawak ako sa batok ko at tumango-tango nalamang. Umiwas ako sa matalim na tingin niya at bahagyang lumayo.

I was never comfortable around her.

"Why are you so affected, Simon? Do you like those type of movies now?" Panunukso ni Clyde.

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin at nagkibit-balikat lamang siya.

Umiling ako at parang gusto kong sapakin ang sarili ko dahil sa mga bagay na tumatakbo ngayon dito. I thought, I'm already done with this but heck! Everyday.. lumalala.

Every second, minute, hour, day, month and year..

Walang pagbabago, instead of it dying, it's getting bigger and deeper.

"I'm not. It's just.. weird." Wika ko.

"Hindi ba ay ganon din yung nangyari kay Tito Josh at Tita Jess?" Tanong ni Clyde.

"That's different. Ampon lang si Tita Jess atsaka naging sila pagkatapos malaman ang lahat. Naging sila nung tanggap na ng lahat ang totoo about kay Tita. They met again after everything and they fell in love." Paliwanag ni Tulip.

I tried grasping everything she just said but I failed. Habang naririnig ko ang boses niya ay wala akong ibang maintindihan kung hindi ang pagusbong ng mga damdamin na matagal ko ng sinusubukan patayin.

"Ano daw?" Tanong ko dahil wala akong nakuha sa mga sinabi niya.

I can't help but stare.

"Diba.. ampon lang si Tita Jess." Ani Clyde.

Yeah, Tita Jess was adopted.

Just like Tulip.

Araw-araw, sinusubukan kong ayusin ang sarili ko. I kept on telling myself that it can't be. Hindi pwede at hinding hindi magiging pwede.

Masasaktan ko si mommy at ang pamilya. She loves the family so much that hurting the family means hurting her but I'm just a human being. I can't stop myself, especially whenever I see her, my world will just change where my eyes could only see the person I shouldn't even dare looking.

"I was a little tipsy so I took a shower and made a tea." Saad ko.

Tumango siya at hindi ko mapigilan ang mapangiti.

"Okay." Aniya atsaka ako tinalikuran.

"Goodnight." I finally said.

Damn, Simon Chase.

What are you doing?

Kanina lang sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na iiwasan ko siya, that the best thing to do is to divert my attention which I'm actually doing for quite a long time but here I am.