Unpredictable Love

Chapter 72

Chapter 72

Harry's POV

When I saw her face standing before me as I opened my apartment door, I panicked. What is she doing here?

I'm not ready to do this yet...

"Karls?" I blurt, stunned.

Emotions flash across her face before she speaks. "Uh...hey.." She murmurs.

Neither of us say anything, just stand there awkwardly gazing at each other. I clear my throat uncomfortably.

"Look Harry, did I do something wrong? It's just yesterday you--" She starts to say, then abruptly freezes.

Her ocean eyes peer over my shoulder that's blocking the doorway. She narrows her eyes then directs her attention back to me.

"Do you have company?" She doesn't hesitate to ask. I cannot seem to bring my eyes to her as a wave of discomfort washes over me.

"Yeah...come in." I murmur.

She flipped shit when she saw Mandy, and I realized it was a bad idea to invite her inside. As soon as I brought her back outside, I knew I had to do it then. I had to rip it off like a band aid and stop putting it off. All I can remember is the way she looked at me when the words left her soft lips that I've kissed so many times.

"This is why you've been acting so distant..." She whispered, heartbreak in her tone.

I felt like vomiting at the sound of desperation in her voice. Every fiber in me wanted to turn around and engulf her I'm a hug, kissing her lips over and over. But I knew what I needed to do, so I forced the words from my mouth.

"Yes, because I realized you're not what I want, or need." I struggled to keep my voice even. Twisting the knob on my door, I stepped inside.

**

When I entered the house Niall and Mandy stared at me dumbfounded.

"What?" I snap.

They both divert their attention elsewhere and Mandy looks sheepish. "I thought she was going to murder me, when she saw me sitting on the couch." Mandy chuckles lightly and I raise my brows at her.

"How did she even know you were the Mandy I kissed?" I wonder aloud. Mandy laughs, "You know she drenched me in sweet tea while I was waitressing down at the diner. That was after she realized I kissed you..." Mandy confesses. Niall and I both laugh, not having known this prior to Karleigh's recent visit.

I climb the stairs to my room, needing to be alone. Karleigh's words replay in my head and I feel emotions I didn't even knew existed.

I told her it was over.

It had to be done, for her. She needed a release, closure. I couldn't have her waiting around, always on stand by, hoping and praying that I'd get better when it was clear that I wouldn't.

She needs to be able to move on with her life. Karleigh doesn't need to spend her life with a fucking cripple who can't even take care of her.

I fall back onto my bed, sighing heavily. My fingers rake roughly through my hair, all I can think about is her. Her long blonde hair, those sea blue eyes, the sound of her voice, how she laughs, and how she cries. Everything that she does plays through my thoughts and I wish I could be healthy for her.

The screen of my phone lights up and I see my Mom's caller ID. Ignoring her call, I grab my phone and turn it off not wanting to deal with the current reality of my life right now.