The little things

Here's to you

Oh it's been a while, I've been and re-read them all, so much has changed. And thank you guys for 19k readers, I'm so happy!! So here we go, here's to you...

To the new guy- We've been talking since July, never stopping, not one day, we just decided to be friends. You're one of the best people on the planet and one of my closest friends of all. I don't know we just clicked and that was it, we understand each other completely, have no need for anything but what we have. I wouldn't have it any other way. Please stay.

To the girl I've known for 12 years- We aren't as close, but we always knew that's how this was going to be, but I'm proud of us, of you. I know things are hard right now, but it will get better I promise.

To the girl with pink hair- Oh the memories we share, late night shenanigans and pictures of ridiculousness. I really do love you.

To the boys who make my life interesting- You make me laugh, you make me crazy, you keep me sane. When all I want to do is scream at the world, you let me scream at you instead.

To the misunderstood boy- What we have no one understands, the way relate no one gets. You drive everyone else up the wall, but you keep me grounded, you're one of the most normal people I know, but everyone else thinks you're strange. You used to drive me mad too, I wanted to kill you, but then you showed me kindness, you showed me what's behind the mask of madness, thanks.

To the girl in love- You are my best friend and I love you, and your relationship is perfect. You make life so much better, when everyone else makes it suck. You make me laugh and make me feel human. I can be me around you and not be afraid, thank you so much.

To the people I've lost- Some of you I'm sad about, I genuinely wept, and others I'm glad to be rid of. You lot are my past, you've built me to what I am, there seems to be a lot of you, but that I can understand. I'm a complicated person, I get it, I'm difficult. But I'm not changing me, so I cut you lose. I sometimes miss it, but I would never go back to it.

To the people that have saved me- Some of you don't know me, some of you do, but I know all of you. You're the reason I keep living, the reason I write, I read, I feel. Thank you for bringing me back from the edge.

To the boy- I guess it's true, I can't seem to let go of you. No matter how hard I try, I'm good with you in a heartbeat, I'll help you anyway I can. You can actually stand me, unlike most of the others in your group. You'll never understand how much you mean to me, and I know I'll never mean the same to you. When we're sat together, we're too loud and laugh too much, but we work well together, we make each other better. We always have each other's backs, we protect each other. I will be truly sad when I lose you.

To the boy who intrigues me- I can't help it, you have my attention, I'm fascinated by what makes you tick, you have this astounding ability to make anyone laugh. And it seems that though you're surrounded by people who accept you, none of them like you and I think that's unfortunate. We went from hating each other, to helping each other. There's just something about you that sticks in my head.

To future Belle- I know things suck right now, but things have sucked before and it got better. I promise you'll make it through, hey you made it this far!! You can do whatever you put your mind to. Oh and future Belle, thanks for sticking around long enough to become future Belle.