The little things

Titanic

As I went to write this piece, I was going to say that my day has been like the Titanic.

But as I thought more about what I was going to say, I realised, it's more that the past month or so of my life has been like the Titanic.

It started off great and fun, and slowly but certainly, it's gotten worse.

I have been getting bad news and having shitty realisations all piling on top of one another, to the point where even petty things bother me.

And tonight it has all surmounted.

Part of the problem is I have no way of venting, this helps somewhat, but is nowhere near enough.

I have no one to talk to, and everywhere I turn, I just keep finding things that make me feel worse.

An anniversary of a sad event, people not talking, people not trusting. No shoulders to cry on, no support to fall back on. Everyone last priority and everyone's emotional dumping ground. Bad grades, working late. Right down to the petty minutiae of having to work ten times harder than someone else, to achieve the same end result.

I don't want to make this collection just a bunch of my complaints, but to be honest, with nowhere else to turn with these problems, here is the only option left, because I can't keep it bottled any longer.

My life has been like the Titanic and right now I'm the only person left on the ship, and there are no more life boats.

Everyone else has abandoned ship, avoiding the soon to be wreckage. But it's my life, I can't flee from it, so I am stuck sinking.

Steadily I'm drowning in the emotions and the thoughts.
Someone please throw me a lifeline,
Because I don't know how to swim.