The little things

Love

Love isn't like in the movies, it isn't black and white and it more confusing than they ever convey and you generally don't get the cute relationship in the end.

Love is usually a one way street and while love can be difficult to understand you don't have to have experienced the two way version to understand it.

I have only ever had experience with one way love, but apparently I give great relationship advice.

Also love is never just family and relationships, you also love your friends and your idols.

And love and relationships can be straight, gay, bi, pan, lesbian, asexual, demisexual anything, love has no boundaries.

But love isn't just the lovely fluttery feeling, love is also the hurt and the pain of watching someone you love, fall in love with someone else and constantly talk about that person, and it breaks you, then you watch the person they fell for break them, yet they still go back to them. And they can't see that you were always there. And then there's that person who claims to be able to love the broken you but you can't love them because all you will do is hurt them.

And it stops you being able to love. And it hurts, but there's always the hope of eventually finding love. But there's that one person who won't let go.

Please, move on from me, I know you think you love me but in ten years time you won't remember my name, let alone that you fell in love with me. I fell in love with someone who would never love me back and everyday it tears me apart, it's hurts constantly. And I'm not going to lie and pretend I'm in love with you because that will hurt you more. Don't do what I did, I don't want you to go through what I went through. Move on from me, forget me entirely, and find someone, who will love you as passionately as you love them. I am not that person. I am impossible to love.

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