The little things

Lose

I never understood the thing about 'girls have that one guy they'll never lose feelings for', and I still don't.

My feelings aren't that type anymore, though I still care for you. But now I'm about to lose you, leave you forever, and that doesn't sit right with me.

There's a piece of me that wonders now, is there anything I can do. And there will forever be a piece of me wondering is there anything I could've done.

And no matter what I tell myself you'll always be the first, the first that never was. But our closeness I'll miss, the jokes and the help.

People think I'm smart, people think you're dumb, but we bounce ideas off each other, we have for 10 years, who will I bounce ideas off and be too loud at the back of class with now?

I never felt uncomfortable talking to you, it was always just so easy. Being kind to you is second nature, no matter how harsh I am to the rest of the world. You make me smile and laugh, you support me when the world is trying to knock me down.

I remember the very first moment I met you, a moment I remember for no one else, they just join in somewhere, you were added on that specific day 10 years ago, an elfish image in red and all the girls swooned but me.And later it caught but now it is gone, soon you will be too.

I wouldn't be the person I am today without you, you've always been a big part of my life. What am I supposed to do without my lifeline? When everything seems hopeless, you're that small glimmer that refuses to let go.

I ask myself the question 'What've I got to lose?' the answer is you.