The little things

Here's to you

It's been a while and a lot has changed.

To the not so new guy- it's been almost two years, and we stopped talking everyday. I had my chance and I missed it, I know exactly where the turning point is too. I'm almost unsure where we stand, because you're behaviour towards me is just as soft as ever. I'm sorry, because I feel like I lead you on. In the end, you didn't stay.

To the guy that cares- I'm entirely infatuated with you, but not the romantic kind. I see you more as a brother to me, and I know how much you care, somebody else let it slip. You held my hand when I needed it and I thank you for that so much. Thank you for supporting me.

To the girl I have no words to describe- you are undoubtedly one of my closest friends, and one of the only people who stops the feeling of loneliness. You are immensely talented and gorgeous. I want to thank you for never pushing me, even when everyone else does.

To the boy I recently discovered- yes you may be fictional, but I relate to you so much. I often find myself, wishing to reach through my screen and give you a hug.

To the people I don't yet know- in a few months I will have met you, I will have developed ideas of you and figured out how I feel towards you.

To the boy who was my first friend- it's been a long road and we haven't always seen eye to eye, haven't always been friends. You're finally gone forever, unless I see you one day more, but while I said goodbye to the masses of others, eyes dry and throat unstuck, I couldn't bring myself to say goodbye to you. I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it, even the thought brings a lump to my throat.

To the author of the open diary I have fallen in love with- I treat the book like a bible, I live by it's words, I understand the lessons and the feelings. Thank you for sharing the deepest darkest parts of yourself, so that your demons couks dance with mine, and you could help me.

To the girl with green hair- your courage and passion continue to astound and inspire me. Your 'don't give a damn' attitiude, is steadfast without being stubborn, you are the epitome of everything I hope to become.

To the new wave- I'm currently sorting through you. All the new personalities and styles, who will stay, who will go, who will be there once a month.

To the girl who is constant- I am so incredible thankful for you. When the rest of my world is unsteady and confusing, you're there to balance me, even if it's only for a while. You listen to my ranting and help me through all of my problems, thank you.

To the girl who makes a difference- I'm so glad you found her, you make her a better person, you make her happy, in ways no one else ever could. You are understanding and kind and I'm glad that you met and that we met, thank you.

To the boys who don't know I exist- It seems strange that without knowing who I am you've helped me. You've shown me how to have confidence and courage and told me it's okay when I don't. You've taught me how to be kind to myself, that I am not defined by others. Thank you.