Emily's Escape

Chapter 26

Song - The climb by Miley Cyrus. This is the most bomb song in the world. Its nostalgic. 

The next few days were hell. I avoided Carter, I starved myself and I hated myself more than I had ever had. That was not completely true, but it sure was close. Carter had tried to talk to me several of times, but I always brushed him off. Last night, I had taken the bus to therapy; it was so weird not to have Carter waiting in the car with a smile. It felt weird not to text him goodnight, and it sure did feel weird not to sleep next to him. The feeling of waking up alone in the cold, wasn't as nice as it used to be. But I needed to think of something else, I was going to meet up with Anderson now, and I couldn't be all blue about Carter.

"Hey," Anderson said and pushed himself of the wall when I walked by. We were at the theater and I was looking for him. I guess I had just found him.

"Hi," I said and hugged him slightly awkward. He was looking a little pale, but nothing out of the ordinary. I didn't really know what to say or what to do.

"Do you wanna try something fun?" I nodded enthusiastic.

"Sure, what is it?" Anderson smiled and shook his head. He pushed me a little towards the Burger King that where located in the small mall we were in. I suddenly felt nervous; would we be eating there? I didn't want to do that. I hadn't eaten since Sunday, why would I mess it up now?

"Don't worry, Emily, we're not eating. We're doing something fun, remember?" I loosened up and smiled. He walked us to the register and spoke. "We'll have to big coke zeros and two cheeseburger meals, please," he said with a smile to the cashier. She nodded and typed away on the screen.

"Anderson, I really don't see you point," I said when we moved to the side of the register. He waved me away and told me to relax. When we got out meals he sat us down in a booth. He put the tray between us and handed out the food and drinks.

"Now, we don't eat it. Just stare, touch and play with it, ruin it and then we'll throw it away. If that's not giving out a message I don't know what is." We were doing what? We were just staring at the food?

"I don't really see the point of this," I said low. Anderson told me to try it out, and I did. I pulled open the burger and stabbed a straw in it. The fat was running out of the disgusting 'food'.

"Okay, maybe I do see the fun in this," I said with a small laugh after we had torn apart the substance on our trays.

"I know, right! No calories, the same amount of pleasure!" Anderson said with a smile. I gave a weak smile back and continued to poke the stuff in the container. 

"Hey, Emily, are you okay? You seem a little off today." I looked up surprised at him. I had never expected him to ask that kind of a question.

"Uhm, yeah, no, not really. You remember Carter, right?" When he nodded, I continued. "We got in a fight, he tried to make me eat, and I didn't want too. It ended with me screaming for him not to touch me, and then I stormed out of his house. That was Sunday, I haven't talked to him since," I blurred out. I didn't want to discuss this, but I needed it. I couldn't keep it to myself any longer.

"That sucks. Maybe you guys just weren't meant to be. If he wanted to change you so you could fit his preferred type, I don't think it's a healthy relationship."

"He didn't try to change me, he tried to help me, help me recover." Anderson scoffed.

"Come on, he was the one who made you think you were ill, right?" I nodded. "You're not, he's just trying to change you into the girl he wants, not the girl you already are. You shouldn't change for some boy." Wow, I had never seen it that way.