(A/N) Thank you for the 300 votes like I asked you guys for at the end of the last chapter. Thank you all so much for the 3000 reads!! It really does mean a lot to me that so many people are reading it. Even if you are a ghost reader. Enjoy this chapter!
Sophia xx
Louis POV:
She edged towards me and I felt like I had to lean in as well. Our faces are now inches apart and kept getting closer and closer. I can feel her warm breath hit my lips, allowing my mind to acknowledge what was about to happen...
"I can't." I tell Ashley pulling away from her.
She remains in the same position, not moving at all. Her face looks slightly shocked.
"It's just that... I just can't." I breathe out, trying not to hurt her.
Ashley just shakes her head at me, obviously in disbelief. "No... no, it's fine." She tells me, only moving backwards a little bit.
"Really?" I asked slightly shocked and a little hurt, but I tried not to let that show. "Are you sure?"
Slowly she nods her head up and down. "Yes... it's fine. Honestly. I mean, how many people can say they almost kissed Louis Tomlinson."
I chuckled at her comment and shook my head at her. "I guess not many..."
I trailed off, thinking about how I have actually kissed Courtney and she stood me up. Even in my slightly drunken state, it is still swirling around in my mind. Most of the alcohol has warn off now, throughout the journey home and the near miss of that kiss.
"Well, I should get going." I spoke up, breaking the silence.
Ashley nods her head. "Yeah, I suppose so. I'll see you around, maybe?" She finished her sentence as more of a question than a statement.
"Thanks for the lift home." I sort of slurr out.
I pull the handle and drag myself up and out of the passenger seat and out into the cold British air. Before shutting the car door, I hear a voice call from inside the car...
"You know, you should hear that girl out before you make a decision. There could be a reason why she didn't show up. I bet would be a good reason why she didn't show, because what would be so important that you would decide to miss a date with, well... you!" She exaggerates, with a massive smile spreading across her face.
I smile at her comment again. "I will. She's not someone I would give up on for standing me up. She means way too much to do that and I have been... and well still am going through a lot to be with her." I explain, trying not to spill out the details, because I know I would regret it later, rather than sooner.
"She really that special to you?" Ashley questions me.
"Yes!" I answer back without any sign of hesitants in my response.
The wind has picked up a lot more, since I have been stood outside of the car, leaning on the top of the open door. My hair is blowing in all directions, making it messy and keep going in my eyes. I shrug my jacket over me and wrap it around myself more, to prevent myself from getting any colder.
"I will do pretty much anything to be with her. I am trying so hard to be with her now, even though its a lot harder than it should be." I sigh at mine and Courtneys relationship issues as I remember what we are going through to be sort of together.
The conversation I had with Harry about Courtney and I replays in my mind so fresh as though it was just yesterday. It was the night when I told Courtney that I had feelings for her. After I left, I had a phone call from him and I knew exactly what it was going to be about...
My phone began to ring on the arm of the couch, as I sat myself down and began to watch some television to take my mind off earlier events at Harry's house.
"Louis!" His tone was showing hints of anger and annoyance.
I didn't know what to say, I can't lie now and back out and deny everything. He witnessed it. He was there.
"Eh. Hey, Harry." I tried not to sound nervous, but it still came out as though I was.
"What were you thinking?" He shouts down the receiver.
"I...I do-" I began, but was soon cut off with a very unimpressed cousin.
"No! What are you thinking? Why would you say that? Why would you lie to her? She's my cousin, you know that. Or have you suddenly forgotten that?" He stressed, making me even more anxious.
"No." I sigh. "I know she's your cousin. I don't know what I was thinking when I said th-" I was once again cut off.
Harry continued to interigate me, as though he was a police officer. "Well then, why did you say that? Just to screw her ov-"
This time it is my turn to cut harry off mid sentence. "I wasn't doing it just to 'screw her over'" I mimick what he said to me. "I said it because i do actually have feelings for her. I do know that she is your cousin, I haven't forgotten that at all. I wasn't thinking at the time, because it needed to be said then, even though I would have prefered to do it in a more personal place, and not to yell it at her."
"Well, unfeel them!" He said, his tone still not lightening up at all, even after what I had just said. It was one of the most patheticest and childest comebacks ever.
"Fine!" I huff down the phone to him.
"Thank you..." He sighs, dragging out the sentence.
I hang up, before he has chance to say anything else to me. I slam my phone back on the arm of the couch and run my hands through my hair in annoyance.
He is so gullible if he honestly thinks that I'm going to just forget about my feelings for her. I didn't just break up with Eleanor for no reason at all. This isn't just a 'fling' like I know that's exactly what he thinks this is. That's the only reason I didn't argue with him. He is obviously going to be pretty over protective when it comes to things like that and her. She is his cousin after all. Family is the most important thing to him.
"She really means that much to you then?" Ashley breaks me from my wondering thoughts.
I shake my head... "Eh?" I say confused, a frown forming from my eyebrows.
Ashley giggled at my lack of concentration and rolls her eyes at me. "I said, she really means that much to you then?"
"Yes! More than anything!" My frown has now disappeared and has been replaced with a huge grin, which I can feel is still growing. Just the thought of her makes me smile every time.
"Awe" She coos, and a bright red colour creeps over my cheeks as i become slightly embarrassed.
"Do you love her?"
Her question takes me by complete surprise and I begin to choke on the air. What?! Did she seriously just ask me if I LOVE her? If I love Courtney?
"What?" I choke, still gasping for air.
"Do you love her?"
(A/N) So, I left this one on a pretty big cliffhanger! What do you think he's going to say? Yes? No?
OMG!! I can't wait til I write the next few chapters... something bigs going to happen soon. Ahh, so excited!
Also I have just started writing a new fanfic... it's a 5SOS one, so if you like them then I guess you might wanna read that. idk, it's up to you obviously! Anyway thanks again for the 3000 reads and don't forget to comment and vote. Would love to hear what you think Louis says!
Sophia xx
