I love you, Bestfriend.

Chapter 36:

“Oh my gods! Oh my gods! OH MY GODS! OH MY GODS-” I was ranting but was abruptly cut off by Maddison.

“SHUT UP WOULD YA, WOMAN?” she yelled back.

“Oops?”

“Its 3 fucking AM! Why are you annoying the Gods of Olympus at this time? Babe, let them get some sleep too, you’ve already ruined mine, but spare the Gods at least!” She half yelled half spoke and half yawned, lol. Weirdo.

“But but but, I still gots to pack! And its 3AM and you are asleep and everyone is asleep and I, and I what? Wait, I was saying something..Oh right, yeah, um, I need to pack”

“Diana Summers, we packed everything yesterday! Whats got you so hyper girl? I need sleep, we’re leaving in about 2 and a half hours!” she complained.

“Oh, well..” She was right I did pack..what the fuck is wrong with me? Oh right, that’s because I wasn’t talking about the packing, I was writing my diary..

“Die. Okay no, I don’t mean that but please! For the love of God, lemme sleep” she pleaded.

And I, being the kind awesome sweet girl I was let the girl sleep in peace. Since I wasn’t going to get that any time soon, I settled with making myself a cup of coffee with cream and chocolate sauce, Yes, I knew how to make coffee without destroying it, be happy, I know something.

With my awesome vampire diaries mug in my hand I walked out to my backyard, it was connected to Ashton’s and our mothers being bestfriends made it easier for us to play when we were kids by connecting the two of our lawns together. There was just a small door in between the two lawns, but that’s all that separated us. I smiled at the memory, when we had setup a huge jungle gym, with a cute little plastic slide, little swings, a see-saw and the weird horse that keeps going back and forth, we also had a merry-go-round. Oh, I miss those days, we were so little and fooled around, I remember us having this mud fight where our parents literally didn’t recognize us, we were covered in brown muck and all icky, my mom nor did Lily let us come in until we cleaned ourselves as much as we could.

“Need a hug?” A voice asked behind me, and I knew instantly who it was.

I nodded, and he sat down next to me on the steps, wrapping his arm around me and pulling me closer to his body, engulfing me into his side and taking the cold chills that I felt away.

“No sleep?” I asked.

“Nuh huh, its December, I remember our last family bonfire, and I miss Amanda, I miss her so freaking much.”

“I know, I miss her too, I just- I wish she was here Ashton, here to explain me what the fuck is going on? Why did she give Andrew away to her sister when he was her own blood, it doesn’t make sense, none of it does, why hide her identity? Why hide her sister? There are so many questions I have, so many that I know will remain unanswered but I can’t do anything about it, I’m not gonna sit and wallow in pity Ashton, if I am sure of one thing, then it is that Mom would have wanted me to get through this, get through everything just like she did, she’d want me to be strong, although I’m tired, tired, I need to cry, I need to miss her, I need to throw tantrums, I get it that I have to be strong I do, I really do, but I need a break down.” I couldn’t go further, because I silently started sobbing.

“Look at me Diana, look here.” Ashton asked, I didn’t want to, but did so anyways.

“Listen, Its okay to breakdown, its okay to cry, it really is. I don’t get what you have against this? A person doesn’t become weak or not strong enough, that’s all in your head and everyone else’s. it doesn’t change you, Diana. You are the very same person, so what if you shed a little tears? Big whoop. If you don’t cry you become a cold hearted bitch, and that just sucks, it would be weird if you didn’t cry. You have me, you’ll always have me and your friends, look around you, okay not right now but you get the point. You have SO many friends and people who love you, who are waiting for you to have a break down so that they can take care of you, its normal, you lost your mom, it is A BIG THING. And If you think you’re gonna become weak or let down Amanda, then you’re wrong, you’re so wrong. She loves you, present tense, from somewhere above, and she can only ever be proud of what you have become, I know I am.”