Self Deception

30 / Honesty (rap) // I Drown

So I wrote two songs, although the rap doesn't have a chorus. I'll put them here though because I'm pretty proud of them:

I just underlined some of the lines I like x3
4-6-17 rap
And I'm sorry if I'm everything you expected
Addict by selection,
I'm fine when we texting,
And you tell me it's good when we message,
Imma go drink look I said it
But you don't really know where the source is,
The pain inside of me that forced it,
And I know you don't endorse it,
That's what the back side of the door said,
Slam it till I scream but I can't forget,
I'm haunted by my steps,
If the past is over, why are my mistakes in my head?
I'm sorry, I guess I'm a bit of a mess,
I stopped playing games but you put me to the test,
And for you, I've done my best,
Folded my cards, I'm not playing with death,
I said you were my focus
Every time I said no, they don't know this
Dipping from situations, they don't notice
I got a reputation for smoking
I'm not trying to blow this and I'm not trying to roll this,
I got my shit together for you,
Wouldn't say "shit, whatever" for you
I didn't want "it's whatever" with you,
Cause I'm drawn to whatever you do,
Fuck weed cause I'm gone on whatever you do,
And if ever you knew,
If I was kissing anybody, I would've thought of you,
Talking bout anything, I brought up you,
In glimpses of lyrics I caught you
You had me thinking we could really learn something from it,
You had me sharing my life like you cared for what I taught you,
And I bettered myself cause I'm a better person when I got you
Thinking it was safe, I crawled outta the dark,
Now all you can say is "that's not you"
But like that's not cool,
I've come this far just to watch the pools
Inside of your eyes,
And feel the way they light up mine,
I didn't wanna waste my time,
But with you, we could waste some time,
I guess we all got faults and now you're facing mine,
And we've all tried to hide to get our way sometimes
I'm a closed book but when I talk I don't lie,
At least not to something like you,
With the way you shine
We're heaven and hell and now you're facing time
I wrote for you but now I'm breaking lines,
I had to cope for you, but I lost my mind,
And now nothing can fix it,
No set of words or addiction,
No cut I make, self infliction,
I said some shit, I figured you would get it,
And if not, you'd tell me you didn't,
And I liked that you were real with me,
You'd say when you were feeling me,
Grant me independence, you weren't shielding me,
And if words were valleys, I got fields in me,
I'd pick you the roses, like you were hearing me.
We'd cruise down the roads, happy you were here with me,
Sunlight in the rearview for me,
It's just you and me
And an old track, from '13.
That nobody really knows, but we sing with ease,
I'm sitting on the edge of a legacy,
You're sitting on a ledge with me,
You sigh, say we gotta talk but it begins with me,
How come the ends don't meet?
And you ask me if I'm fine, but I bend and breathe
The truth till I know you'll believe
Cause the truth is the reason that you wanna leave
- (m.m)

Googled an instrumental and I loved it so much I wrote something for it, and this happened...
4-7-17 lyrics | drown | to a Halsey type beat
Fall in love with the bass,
And the rhythm of your face,
Got me high on the rush of the chase
What a tragic case

Ohh and I drown,
Follow you to the underground
We've been around

I drown in your bloodstream
Swimming pools have got me
Rock bottom, in deep,
Just drowning in your bloodstream
I'm dancing on the tv
We're so free
Drown in your bloodstream
And I love how you numb me
The drugs hardly run me
Cause I love how you love me
I drown in your bloodstream

He grips the wheel, tells me it's fine,
Hes dashing around with cocaine eyes
And I watch him like fire
And the heat's climbing up,
Murder mixed in a different cup,
3 gunshots and a little love
It's always been enough
To shed a little blood

Ohh and we'd kill to see the light,
And we'd kill to breathe alright
Take me down tonight

I drown in your bloodstream
Swimming pools have got me
Rock bottom, in deep,
Just drowning in your bloodstream
I'm dancing on the tv
We're so free
Drown in your bloodstream
And i love how you numb me
The drugs hardly run me,
Cause I love how you love me
I drown in your bloodstream

It's a love that you'd die for,
A love that I lie for,
It's just us.
Dodging bullets,
He keeps me safe until he's got the trigger

I drown in your bloodstream
Bloodstream x2

I drown in your I drown in your

I drown in your bloodstream
I love how you numb me
Drowning in your bloodstream
I don't feel empty
I love how you love me
I love how you numb me
I drown in your bloodstream x2
- (m.m)