6-13-17
I know midday like I know night,
And we'll put it into halves like it's easy,
Because I've learned,
There are always two sides.
Sometimes the dull of the heat,
And the lack of cheap screen doors for aesthetic,
Lack of conversation,
Lack of everything
Could make you a little crazy,
But these things don't feel like anything
Until they do.
And by the time they will,
You'll be dreaming,
But let me tell you what I'm thinking.
Third perspectives-
I saw inside of my body,
Like I was hollow-
We were up in horror,
Flashing like a montage.
Skeletons
Hanging from the skeletal,
Chanting something.
I moved sounds into rhythms
That weren't there,
Turned volumes on dials.
I heard the voices,
But I shut up right about then.
I know what it's like to be alone,
And I'm begging myself not to lose it.
I know you're where I am,
And I know we've met loss at a crossroad.
Sunlight is all too much,
And it still leaks through,
At night.
I want the kind of darkness
Where nobody can watch,
Just to be alone.
Ironic,
Because alone is only ever good,
When you're full.
Meanwhile, I'm sunbleached and fucking psycho.
To say I wanna dip,
Just fall off,
Is an understatement,
But options are limited.
Whatever's gonna speed me up,
I'll take it.
Life of the night,
Don't see me during the day.
Bottom line is,
I'm alone-
Don't you say you've been here through and through.
Two sides to loneliness,
And I could see that.
Two sides to success,
And it's all doubt doubt doubt.
Two sides to me-
The one they want,
And the one they fucking hate.
Two sides to thievery-
I'm a shit person,
But you deserved this.
Two sides to you-
The one who's got everything,
So he doesn't need this,
And the side I loved even more,
A boy with everything, yes,
Everything but stability.
- (m.m)
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Self Deception
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