Self Deception

82 / Type Beat Lyrics

9-2-17 rap to type beat murderer
Lay me out to fucking die
Lay me out to die
x?

Come around here,
Call me killer
Call me murderer
I keep her around
Just for kicks
Haven't heard from her
Ceiling hits now,
Feeling shit now,
I've been getting cold
Since they had the chance to let down
You catching dirt
Like you think it's gonna ground you,
Ask why it hurt
I tell em fucking look around you,
They pushed me to my limits,
Now I'm ice,
They say you are what you perceive,
Fucking nice,
Nothing is up to me,
So roll the dice
Taking chances,
And I'm never thinking twice,
Once was enough
To turn my virtues to a vice,
Cause I'm always looking at the bottom
Of the flipside
Fuck the brightside,
It's feeling dark
And I say likewise
Where heaven starts,
I see my demise
Something so fucking good
Could take my life
Over again,
Play it back in the highlights

Wish I could kill it all with one shot
But that's not the kinda luck that I got,
See I been dying since before I could live,
Pull the trigger and I give,
A little more love than I'm used to
Wish I could kill my self with one shot,
Down the shit, I never miss,
But keep aiming just to hit
Pull the trigger and I give
A little more love than I'm used to

I make mistakes,
Mistakes make me,
Blood in the whites
Of my eyes could shake me
From my headaches
To my shoes,
From the top of the world
Down to you
And they ain't ever told me anything different
Than I would've been shit without the dip in
To a pool where everybody wants to get in
And never leave,
Wondering how this kinda shit
Connects to me,
Or what they used to see,
But I'm down sick in the scene
Pulling at my bones like a breeze,
Don't back away,
Fucking take me
It's a little more love than I'm used to
See I been dying since before I could live
Pull the trigger and I'm in
Fuck these bodies,
Gonna hang em from a ceiling,
And prove to you
That I've got a little more hate than I'm used to

Gonna kill em all

You're a little more love than I'm used to

- (m.m)

9-4-17 rap/lyrics to Soulmates
Said I never meant to break soulmates
She said I never meant to break soulmates
Said I never meant to break soulmates

And I know it's late in the evening,
Calling you just to see if 
You're here like you used to be
You used me
Keep talking to the wintertime,
Looking to heal shit,
But im numb, no luxury to feel shit
Cough blood, give myself more to deal with
Cracking cold, and laying low
Feeling up december's snow,
Touch better than I used to know
Takes me higher than we used to go
Ohh ohh x2
Nothing's gonna fix me, after you
If the truths gonna hit me, won't wait for you
Spent days playing games with you
Days all a waste for you

She said I never meant to break soulmates
I just wanted you to show me how to live,
God the way it hits

She said I never meant to break soulmates
But darling, you didn't do shit
Could've saved it

Got ice keep me colder than you
My ice all colder than you
Couldn't give a fuck if I tried to
You're not on the end of the lines,
Keep blowing it, fuck the time,
Think I'm at the end of my line,
Think I'm fading out like the lights
Please pour me more, swing me down,
Not ready to feel you now
Haunted in red by the doubt
That hangs like a bitch from me
It's heavy like a bitch to me
Give in, cause I need to feel the release
Feel the release, of you

She said I never meant to break soulmates
I just wanted you to show me how to live,
God the way it hits

She said I never meant to break soulmates
But darling, you didn't do shit
Could've saved it

She said I never meant to break soulmates
But what a promise to break
I still shake

She said I never meant to ruin it all
But darling, you did
And I took the fall
I took the fall
- (m.m)

9-5-17 rap to bones type beat 'the deep'
Got a long intro, but I don't think y'all ready
Just downed a couple mills, my thoughts ain't steady
They don't fucking trust me, fucking call me feddy
Turn around and run like a motherfucking tready
Bitches in the dirt, take em by they feet like they paid for a pedi
Let her do the work like a maid cause she petty
Get her on her knees and maybe then I'll drop a penny
Put ghosts in the bottles, cause it fucking took Penny
Keep talking shit till your fucking teeth fall out,
You can try to hide but Im lower than the ground,
Digging up the flowers and checking who's around
Skeleton block, we learn not to make a sound
You turning up, and we're all fucking down,
4am, only dead shit's loud
Keep necks by a chokehold, if you make it out,
Keep hanging with us, and see what we about
Liquid drips off the ceiling, we drown,
Holes in the molding like crown
Apple, swinging it around,
Drink till the fucking light of day,
And all the bedsheets stained
In a motherfucking name
Fucked life till the fucking bitch came
Done with the shit since the day
They tried to tell me they had it all the same,
Well why the fuck you doubting the way I tried to lay
All this shit down, mood swinging like a chain
Fuckers played games,
Now I'm teaching em the way
Drunk driving, merging in your lane,
Pussy ass bitch wanna try to do it safe,
Liquor and head, swimming in a lake
Got your bitch wet like they fucking call me rain
I'll take all that you got, ain't no fucking way
The devil doesn't want me when I'm so far from a Saint
Skin like a canvas, full of red paint
Kick all the buckets, then I fucking faint
Like an anorexic, dropping off like weight
All that fucking progress, remember why you came
Say what I want, cause I carry no shame
Tongue to a bullet of the 7-4-KA
AK47 shoot em all up like a motherfucking drip,
Triggering bitches like a motherfucking crip
- (m.m)

Don't think that last one is done but imma just post it now and I'm really proud of it tbh