11-28-17 Escape ASAP Rocky x schoolboy q type beat rap
Looking for an escape
Not looking in the same way
That I fucking used to
Call it new direction
Don't know where I'm going though
But does anyone know
Where it takes us?
The pain makes us
I got a problem and it ain't go away
I know I can't rid it, shit just ain't the same
Takes a toll takes a toll
I'm always on my own
Yeah motherfuck the world for everything it is
Motherfuck that bitch
I told em that's the shit
Fucks you up, leaves you lies
Leaves you high, leaves you lost
Need an escape
Said there's another way
You ain't gotta do it like this
Well I did
I never give shits
That's just how it is
Get it back get it back
Flipping through the memories
And they seem to seep
So damn deep
My bones go down with em
History has been written
And i walk through it like it isn't
Heavy, like a weight
On my chest
I need a break
Need some rest
Can't fucking sleep
Paranoia never left
And I leave it all at the best
Cause that's all they wanna hear
And I should've never been here
Shouldn't have lived
Long enough to take a sip
Looking at this drank in my hand
Like you know who I am
You know who I am
And I have,
The worst
When I learned the best
And he changed me,
Taught me Blue
Yeah he taught me blue
Touched me without your hands
With the shit that you do
Baby you ain't gotta ask
Give the world to you
What I pray to
On some real life shit,
But none of this is new
- (m.m)
11-27-17 $uicideboy$/bones type beat Creepin (visual effects)
Dawn rolls around like the eye of the gods
Bitch I'm high as the gods
Red red red spinning back in my skull,
All that I never had, all that I got
Drop it on the concrete, cool never hot
Dip my feet into pools for thought,
Light hits my face and I fall
Down down down and I fall
Creeping in the background, of the scene
Tell me all the shit you don't believe
Shadows high and low like a breeze,
Wind in my teeth, and we never stop speed
Fuck you, I learned not to need
I was always left, let the red just seep
My lover is a headache, in which I sleep
Need to get a break
With a cracked phone screen
Fuck the fake shit I listen to the trees
Hopping out, hit the deck with my feet
Turn around I know there's eyes on me
A window where I sleep, a roof that leaks
Wouldn't call it home
But its close, it seems
Everything's close in my dreams
Wake up with a panic and I can't fucking sleep
Not sure if I'm fucked or its real this time
Creeping round the curtains,
Says it's real this time
- (m.m)
11-13-17 rap to xxxtentacion type beat Paradise
Baby you're a god,
Looking at me straight
Looking like diamonds
Reflecting at the gates
Teeth of a wide smile
Breathing like fate
Prisms in your eyes
Catching my stare
And you keep em inside,
Glass of green behind,
Fogged up and smooth,
Artist of creation
Artist yeah you make it
Look so easy,
Tell me it's not easy,
You don't need to lie,
I know I'm not keeping
Everything that's mine
Tell me you believe it
Yeah tell me what your keeping
Bleed out all your secrets
Baby I can keep it
Cause this just ain't words
All the light gleaming
Reflecting over four
Surfaces of see through
Knocking on the doors
Let me in tonight
You know I'm fucking yours
You know I'm fucking yours
I couldn't let go
I should've let go
I know its wrong
But I want paradise
I want paradise
You're all I'm needing
You know I need it
I know it's so wrong
So wrong
My limbs you display
So everyone can see
They know all the parts
Of you that own me
Could've blacked out the windows
Hid it like a scene
Of murder and blood
But this is like a dream
Cutting edges with the sky
Harder than it seems
Chips in the glass
Close enough to breath
But not enough to touch
Blame it like it's luck,
Or maybe it's the trust
Of the universe
That our eyes are enough
But what draws us away,
Pulls us close as fuck
I need you harder
When I let myself want
Can't push it away-
You're all I see
Need another dose,
For you I'm a fiend
I'm cold like a snow drift,
Melt away the dreams
Of paranoia shit
And give me what i need
Baby you know what I need
Up with the angels
Sinning in the sky
Give me everything
Baby don't ask why
What a downfall
To play out this lie
Nothing like you,
One of a kind
I think about all the light
Encasing you
Laser beams
And the chase of you
It's taken a lot to keep breaking you
But you want it too
I'm ghost as fuck
But not to you
Look at me
Turn the colors blue
Making sense yet
What I turn to
I got some problems
You don't mind I do.
Got some love,
Give it all to you
What you don't see
I got ways to prove
- (m.m)
First two have been recorded and are posted to YouTube. Last one isn't finished but I've been slowly working on it and I'm in love with the image it creates in my head. Need a better chorus. Might just fuck the chorus though ? Idfk. I love music.
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