7-15-17
Street walkers and window jumpers,
Got a thousand headleyeghts on me,
Questions spill into the air
Like comic strip speech pattern.
Wondering where I come from
Wondering where I'm going,
Truth is, I'm not even sure.
Shirtless strips
Backseat views
With a stickshift
Ducking from the wanderers,
Drifting drifting drifting
Give you what you want.
Wheels spin
Gears in your head
I tell you I'm not here to throw shade,
Because I couldn't give less of a fuck
And yet I find it funny how tables turn.
I'm not one of you,
We're here to stitch lips,
And learn a bit.
We're unfamiliar tonight,
That's the freedom of it.
Took some lines
On a screen
In white
To get us here,
Don't act like you don't know what brought you.
Ego trip
What a phrase.
No, I don't love you,
But I love the focus,
You sway with no balance,
And that's where my hearts been
For three years straight.
Attracted to the attraction,
Dim screen light
Drips like sweat from the ceiling,
Feeling a little
Too loved
For a place like this.
- (m.m)
7-17-17
Prison light bulbs,
Swinging like a chain,
World full of weight.
Can I spill some truth?
Door's been locked,
Pistol cocked,
People on the walls seem okay,
But my head's not.
Sinner's hands
Get to concrete,
Scared of the roads
I used to see,
Only felt heaven
When I took the wings
On a high,
And told myself
To free fall
Into the heights,
Always dreaming up new ways to die.
Funny how these people talk
But I'm the only one without lies.
Told you I'm only safe when I'm fucked,
Said you're afraid of me,
Not quite used to what I've become,
But the truth is?
Ive been the worst side's favorite someone.
I play the game
But I'm not entirely worthless here.
Wrap me up,
My love,
I want to die with you.
Fuck these shady
Bitches
Fuck my habits
And decisions.
Seen 'em dead
Just like you,
And nothing's been so damaging,
That I related,
Nothing's been so beautiful,
That I felt drawn in,
Well,
Nothing but her,
But we know where it all goes now-
Down down down
The fucking drain,
Watch the bulb swing
While you scream my name,
Flicker yourself
And numb my pain,
Shake the walls
So that every fucking face
Meets gravity and falls,
If I loved you then,
I couldn't care at all,
Let me go numb in the cage
Beneath the waves
Dirt diamonds
And a passion for hate,
Finally alone
Without needing to stay sane,
Without needing you
To take me to a better place-
I'm locked here in place
But my life is never stable,
So fuck knows what'll change,
And I'm sorry for my ways,
I could never change pace,
Analyze the print,
Could never turn the page-
Closing the book,
Because ain't it pointless anyways?
Let me fly let me fly
Let me fucking die
- (m.m)
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Self Deception
PoesiaPoetry 2017 And if I burn out in a fit of psychosis, remember me as a young god, with that smile made of daggers, even if I was the most dangerous thing you could've touched. Perhaps all that danger comes from the multiple personalities, but all I...
