Before it ends

Hell, it'll take forever...

I walked home, the bus took too long and the weather was temperamental, I could have frozen this morning, and here I was with sweat dripping from my hair. A lot like back in LA.
I hated that place, I hated him. And now he's coming back.
The only good thing about this day was-
"What are you grinning about? I saw you with Hayley Rhys today, how'd you score that?" Dan ran beside me, his black hair hanging over his eyes, as if hiding apart of the of the ocean. Yep, he was a looker. The girls loved him, his blue eyes and dark hair. The absolute opposite of me.

"Nothing," I stopped smiling. Who even knew I was? "This is me."

"And this is me." he pointed to the door next to mine, his goofy smile and messy hair disappeared into the sound of roaring. Six brothers will do that.

I dumped my bag at my front door, dropped my keys in the bowl beneath the mirror and headed to the kitchen. Mum was hunched over the stove; I immediately knew she was trying to bribe me. The smell of delicious cheesy sauce climbed up my nostrils and settled. Mac and cheese- the only thing she could cook- my favourite. Without eye contact I opened the fridge, grabbed a biscuit and pored myself some soda.

"Sugar, sugar, sugar." Mum shook her head and shot me a smile. I did not smile back. Carrying my stuff upstairs, the front door opened. Without even realising I jumped, it was my sister. I took a deep breath. Ems stared up at me, her eyes filled with apologies, apologies that her pride wouldn't let be said.

Looking at her I could tell she'd been running. Emily was a runner 'the great Emily Montgomery', 'the girl who ran to breathe' she was what mum called 'genetically talented', but for Ems it wasn't just academic, she ran when she was frustrated when there was nothing else for her to do. Back in LA she did it a lot, she ran to get away from me, from his home, from dad.

"R" she said softly "You don't understand. I'm- I'm-"

"Yeah I'm sure, you're sorry about a lot of things Em, about just standing and not doing anything, about running and not staying, and I forgave you, but not this time. I won't be that stupid."

Mum came to the stairs concern written all over his face. "What's going on?"

"Like you don't know." I hissed "Just understand if he's coming back I'm leaving. For good." and with that I stormed upstairs. I was so angry. I slammed my door and screamed into my pillow. Pacing thoughts raced through my head. Liars, Liars, Liars each one of them. We moved away because people knew and now the problem was coming here. I stayed in silence for a while until the ping of my phone disturbed my thinking.

Hey, it's Hayley I'm going to a party Tomorrow. Nicholas's party, he said I could bring someone so txt back if u can come ;) -Dan gave me your number. 4:30

Hayley seemed cool and I wanted to text back, to say yes. I didn't want her to think I was weirded out by the story she told me, I wasn't. I just didn't want to be a drag; I might not be able to have fun with everything on my mind. Although that was my biggest reason to go. I pondered the idea, trying to block everything else out. Even the slamming of my sister's door. She must have got in trouble for telling me. Serves her right.

Kl txt me the details. Can't wait to go x 4:32

I reread the text and deleted the 'x' maybe it was too much. I shouldn't push it; we did just meet. I replaced it with a wink face instead, the same one she sent me.

That was the right choice, I didn't want to turn her down, plus a distraction was what I needed.

How did life get so complicated, I stared up at the ceiling? I mean, nothing was ever easy but it was better. About 2 years ago I was happy, I had a girlfriend, my sister was head of her track team, on the GB pathway and I was living with dad. Mum was happy. Everything made sense until we moved to the states. Everything was just-