Pinagtagpo Pero Hindi Itinadhana (JaDine Fanfiction)

Chapter 40

Chapter 40 - Fever

Have you ever love someone who can't love you back?
That how much effort you serve, he's just not paying attention.
That how much care you give, he'll just shrugged it off.
That how much love you put, he is just not interested.
It sucks right? Loving a person who can't love you in return.
But why are you pushing yourself to that numb?
Why are you wasting so much effort even though you already know that he doesn't care? He doesn't give at least just a little damn.
Why?
Simple, because you're already in a deep hole.
You actually fell, but where is he to catch you? Where is he?
In others' arms. In others' side. And its not you.
Are you hoping that one day he will look at you the way you look at him?
Are you praying that one day he will come to you saying, "I like you too."?
Are you silently waiting for that one day that he'll realized how much you mean to him?
Are you?
Guess what, he will. In no time.
But actually you didn't notice something very important. When that day comes, the guy who actually loves you from a far will be tired. Tired of waiting you. Waiting you to give just a quick glance, because you're too busy gazing someone else. Love sucks, indeed.

"How?" mahina kong tanong kay Bret.

"They called me. What the hell, Nadine? Buti na lang dito ako nag-set ng vacation leave ko sa lugar na 'to. What if hindi ako agad pumunta sayo? What if walang nakakita sayo?" frustated niyang ani.

Kahit nanghihina ay inabot ko ang kamay niya. Napatingin siya sa kamay ko na nakakapit sa kanya bago niya ako tinitigan.

"Thank you for saving me.." bulong ko.

I know from the very start, he has his eyes on me. Hindi ako manhid para hindi iyon mapagtanto. Pero mas pinili kong hindi diligan ang pasibol niyang damdamin para sa akin. Ayokong umasa siya sa isang katulad kong nakadepende na sa isang tao, sa isang taong nakadepende na rin sa iba. Ayoko siyang masaktan, ayokong maranasan niya kung ano ang nararamdaman ko.

I've been in love with someone who didn't love me back, and I've been loved by someone I didn't love back. But.. I don't know which is worse— to be broken or to break another soul.

He is nice, gentleman and handsome. Every woman's dream. But despite of his perfect profile, I can't like him back. I just can't. Sinubukan ko pero matigas ang ulo ng puso ko, alam kung kanino siya tumitibok.

"Gusto mo bang tawagan ko sila?"

Kasama ba sa ibig niyang sabihing "sila" si James?

Umiling na lang ako. Hindi nga ako nagsabi na umalis ako ng bahay tapos malalaman pa nilang nagkasakit ako?

"You're burning last night. Dadalhin na sana kita sa hospital pero tumanggi ka."

Hindi ako umimik. Masakit pa ang ulo ko at pakiramdam ko hanggang ngayon inaapoy pa rin ako ng lagnat sa sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko.

"Ipagluluto kita ng lugaw. Please just rest, Nadz. Wag ka na munang gumalaw o magtangkang umalis ulit ng mag-isa." banta niya.

Malamlam akong ngumiti.

Isang tingin ang ginawad niya sa akin bago lumabas.

I'm not actually alone. Mayroon dapat akong kasama kaya lang ay hindi ako sinipot. Siguro naghahanap na iyon ngayon sa akin.

Luminga-linga ako sa paligid para hanapin ang cellphone ko. Teka? Dala ko ba iyon? Ang natatandaan ko lang na hawak ko ay ang notepad na nabitawan ko bago ako mawalan ng malay.

Tumayo ako para hanapin sana sa bag ko ang cellphone ko nang biglang bumukas ang pinto.

"Gusto mo ba ng—Nadine!"