Our secret { camren }

22. You & i

"You an I, we don't wanna be like them."

In honor of the one direction video that came out today. It's flawless I love it so much. My favorite part was when Niall did a cartwheel and Harry's close up. YAS !!!

Lmfaoo I got suspended on twitter today go figure!!!! They said I used a hashtag too much!!'

Lauren's POV.

"Lauren." Camilas voice filled with so much emotion. I've longed to hear her voice.

I pull out a little piece of paper. A poem I've wrote.

"Let's me read you something I scribbled down." I shout.

She leans over the window to listen.

"I wrote this down last night when I could sleep well because you weren't by my side." I breathe out.

a frown plastered on her face.

" I don't want you to give up on me, you don't understand how I'm terrified that I'm gonna hurt you. I'm scared to get close. And I hate being here alone without you. I long for that feeling to not feel at all. The higher I get, the lower I'll sink. I can't drown my demons, babe. They know how to swim." I shout up towards the window.

"Come here." She yells down.

Excitement rushes through my veins. I run to the doorstep and buzz the door.

It slowly opens and I run upstairs to the apartment. Camila waits there with the door open only a shirt covering her. I frown but then she smiles and hugs me.

"I've missed you so fucking much." I breathe into her neck.

"I've missed you too." Her voice so small and quiet.

"I brought you flowers." I shrug and hand her the pink roses.

"My favorite." She reaches the roses up to her nose and takes in the scent.

"I thought so." I smile.

"Thank you, they are beautiful." She smiles and takes the flowers into a vase filled up with water.

"Cuddle with me?" She reaches for my hand.

"Always." I nod.

She drags me into a room, guest like.

We lay on the bed, intertwined.

We lay there in silence until camila speaks up.

" were no good for each other you know?" She whispers.

"I know." I mumble.

Her thumb reaches up and brushes my face.

"Can I tell you something?" She asks.

"Yeah." I close my eyes.

"I can't fix you." She whispers.

I nod.

"I can't save you."

I nod.

"It's something you have to do." She mumbles.

"I know."

She pauses for a second.

"I want you to let go, let me go." A tear leaves her right eye.

"I can't, you know I can't." My voice cracks.

"But it will set you free, I can set you free." She wipes her eyes.

"You can see what you need to see, if you just let me go. Maybe you can find yourself and fight off your demons." She whispers but her voice shakes.

She takes a long breathe and pause.

"Will you promise me something?" She mumbles.

I nod.

"Of course anything for you." I smile.

"When you find yourself, come back for me."

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