The Darkness Inside

Ch:44

While my nerves settled I thought about ways to kill Reedus. Some were painful while others were quick. I liked the painful ones better. As I sat on the ground I listened to the sounds of nature to calm me down. I close my eyes and I became one with the beautiful nature around me.

When I opened my eyes I stared at Dustins ashes. I put my hands over then and I tried to use my powers to bring him back, but it didnt work. I let out a sigh then I got up off of the cold ground. I still blamed myself for Dustins death. It was all my fault. I shook my head because I was disappointed with myself.

I slowly walked through the woods with my head down in shame. My wolf tried to tell me that it wasnt my fault, but I didnt listen to her. After I walked for awhile I seen the glow from the house lights. I walked slower than before because I did t want to face my pack right now. I didnt want them to see how weak I was.

In the distance I could see them all. My pack and the vampires. As I got closer Chris looked over towards my direction. He turned his whole body towards me. Everybody else looked at Chris then they looked in the direction he was looking in.

They all started to walk over to me. I tried to hold in the tears, but then they came pouring out. Chris wrapped his arms around me. He squeezed me tighly, letting me know that he was here for me. I said "I love you Chris". He kissed my forehead then he stroked his hand through my hair. He whispered in a raspy voice "I love you too".

The vampires came over and they all formed a group hug with me in the center. One of them said "Dustin said that if he died he wanted us to join your pack". The info that he told me sank in. I looked around at the rest of my pack. They were all shaking there heads up and down telling me that it was ok with them.

I looked at all of the vamps then I said "Dustin was my good friend. Any friend of his is a friend of mine and my packs...you can join...so can any other vamp from your clan". They all let out a breath of relief. They all said "thank you" in unison. Then they all walked over to where the others in my pack were.

Chris asked "are you ok"? I said "Im just a little sad and shocked thats all". My bottom lip quivered then I started to break down again. As I cried I said "this is all my fault. If I wouldnt have ran then I wouldnt have tripped on the tripwire. Dustin would still be alive. Its all my fault".

I buried my face into my hands as I let out more tears. Chris said "its not your fault babe". Josh butted in then he said "its Reedus's fault. That bastard was the one who killed Dustin". I fell to my knees as I said "no, it's my fault, I should have listened to you guys...and now Dustin's dead because of me".

Chris knelt down beside me then he picked me up. He carried me to the van then he set me down once he got the door open. The rest of the pack, now including the vampires, went inside Devon's house.

Chris wrapped his arm around my waist then he said "it's no your fault, trust me. You didnt know that Reedus was going to do that". I asked "why Dustin"? Before he would speak I said "it should have been me".

The look on Chris's face was awful. He held me tight up against him as he said "don't you EVER say that. I couldn't live without you. I'm glad that it wasn't you, but I'm sad that it was another from our pack".

I cried, soaking up his shirt. He rubbed my shoulder to comfort me. I wrapped my arms around him then I said "don't come when we look for Reedus". He asked "why not"?  I cupped my hands around his cheeks then I put my face close to his. Our foreheads touched. I whispered "because I cant loose you again".

Chris put his hand on the back of my head then he leaned closer to me. Our lips met which made me smile a tiny bit. He took his lips off of mine then he said "I promise that you wont loose me...I'll never leave you again".

After a few more minutes of kissing we got out of the van then we went inside. Everyone was in the living room. We walked over then we sat on the floor. Chris sat down then I sat in front of him. He spread his legs so I leaned back and rested my head against his chest.

I closed my eyes and I thought about a plan that was brewing in my mind. I decided that I was going to do it, but I was gonna do it alone. I didn't want anybody else to get hurt. I knew now the importance of being an alpha. It was about making sacrifices for the ones we love. And if that meant dying to save the pack...well I would do it.

I whispered to Chris "lets go somewhere more private". He smiled knowing what I meant. He got up then he ran into Devin's room to grab something. He grabbed my hand then we walked out to the van. I wanted to have one more intimate night with Chris because I could die trying to protect the group.

3 HOURS LATER:

My arms were wrapped around Chris tightly. I was crying as quietly as I could. He was sleeping so this was the perfect time to leave. I got up and I got dressed. I kissed Chris one last time on the lips then I quietly got out of the van. Before I shut the door I said in a whisper "I love you Chris, I always have and always will".

I shut the door then I walked over to the house. I opened the door then I walked inside. I walked into the living room then I gave everyone a kiss on the forehead. I got out my phone then I sent a chain text to all of them. It said:

To my wonderful Pack,

I couldn't ask for a better pack then all of you. There's something that I have to do. I cant let you come because it's to dangerous. I don't want anyone else to get hurt or die. Please dont follow me or try to look for me. I need to do this one thing by myself. If trouble comes your way I want you all to stick together and run. Run as far away from here as you can go. I love you all and I want to keep you guys safe.

Love your Luna, Shelby.

I pressed the send button then all of their phones buzzed. I walked outside and I disappeared into the woods.

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