Makeup remover wipes S.M.

Chapter 40

Shawn went out with Aaliyah and I've been home he said we'd go out for dinner at eight but it's almost nine and I'm starting to get tired. I spent my day with my girls and tomorrow is my day for my boys, I'm going to take the older three paint balling and then CJ and the babies and I are gonna go to a play place where they can play to their hearts content and I won't have to worry. I love my kids, and I love our family. They're so amazing and they're just so nice to us I can't imagine any other people to have surrounded my kids with. "Night mama," Mercy smiles laying a blanket over me. I'm just too tired to wait for him any longer. I spend a lot of time with our kids and I've spent a lot of time braking down. It takes a lot of energy and takes up a lot of hours that I could be sleeping especially with nine of them.

"That was a lot of fun," I can hear Aaliyah, I'd like to stand up and tell Shawn I'm ready but my body is completely shut down and I can't really control myself. "We have to do that again." She chuckles running to her room. Shawn yawns starting up the stairs but comes back down picking me up the blanket falls

"Oh princess," he mumbles while I pull into him for warmth. "I'm so sorry," he sighs. He'd promised me a nice dinner for a year away and about nine months of no cuddles. I don't think he saw but there are still pictures everywhere of me naked. One of his nurses took the picture and it was everywhere the nurse got fired quickly but I've stayed out of the spotlight since. I'd be asked to become a nude model or something. I don't wanna do that, there are a lot of days that I can't even face my kids at all. It hurts me, and it hurt them a lot for a long time, I just hope none of them ever get photographed like with without consent.

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He lay asleep as usual and we're up at the same time and he'll be ready to help me with breakfast but he's not up yet so I go to the bathroom to commence my day on my own. I brush my teeth and do my makeup heavily just like I used to before I throw on some comfortable clothing and head downstairs to make breakfast. "How was dinner?" My dad smiles. Neither of my parents really like the idea of me with Shawn and the whole time he was in the hospital they tried to set me up with Justin. They tried convincing me that if I wasn't allowed to visit it was of his doing so I gave up. Sometime around the new year I gave up trying and stopped trying to visit.

"It was good," I nod. My parents believe just as Shawn does that I could do better, they were almost liking him until our babies were born and he didn't call ever to check in. They were pretty much fine with him until I stopped going to the hospital and what really set them off was the picture that surfaced though. I took a week long trip to bora bora to try and calm myself down. My parole officer had to accompany me but I don't know why it mattered I never left my villa. I couldn't bring myself to leave and nobody knew I was there. They were all too busy with the picture. I haven't read any of the articles none of the anything attached to it I'm too afraid.

"Where did he take you?" My dad raises an eyebrow while I cut up some vegetables for breakfast, my answer was very blunt and I don't think he believed that we actually went out.

"He took me out for a picnic." I nod very sure of it. One of the kids wails but it's silenced quickly and soon our crying boy is brought downstairs by his dad.

"So you two had a good time then?" My dad whispers while Shawn approaches.

"Yeah, it was a nice little date." Nodding my father walks off patting Shawn's shoulder on his way out of the kitchen. "Hi baby," I smile at the boy in Shawn's arms. He falls into my embrace laying against my shoulder. "Braxton?" I smile and he giggles, they all get really excited when you say their names.

"Kat?" He turns to me. "I heard what you told your dad," he moves to hug me and I move back turning to sit him in the high chair. "Angel wing?" He pouts. "I'm gonna give you the best damn date we've ever been on, I'm gonna go set up the picnic you asked for, I'm gonna make you smile." He nods very sure of himself, I feel bad he thinks he has to do all of this. He just wanted to spend time with his family he hasn't seen them in a year but he hasn't seen me either, he hadn't even met our babies and still he left us.

"Shawn stop it," I groan a little pulling him back into the kitchen. "We're adults, so what Shawn, you stood me up." I shrug and he sighs.

"It's not about me standing you up, I would've still been upset," he shrugs a little. "But it's been so long since I've seen you, and since I've held you." He lifts me up but my legs don't wrap back around him so he forces them to. "You looked stunning, and that pink lingerie." He whispers but moans softly. "I would've missed so much."

"You did miss a lot." I roll my eyes a little he kisses my shoulder.

"Than let me make it up to you," he pleads softly. "I don't have any hair left for you to run your fingers through but if you'll still have it I'd like to cuddle you and play with yours."

"I wanna punch you," I shake my head attaching our lips. "I really, really wanna hit you but I love you too much."