Destroying everything {Lasercorn}

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Lex

I sat down with my guitar. My uke was behind me. I took a moment before I turned on the camera. I chose three songs to sing. Abbey's favorite Panic! Song, Ryans favorite Panic! Song, folkin around by Panic! At The Disco, and girls/girls/boys by Panic! At The Disco of course. I decided to do Ryans first. I sat for a moment before I started playing.

She held the world upon a string
But she couldn't ever hold me
Spun the stars on her finger nails
But it never made her happy
Cause she couldn't ever have me

She said she won the world
At a carnival
But she could never win me
Cause she couldn't ever catch me

I, I know why, because when I look in her eyes
I just see the sky
When I look in her eyes, well
I just see the sky

I don't love you
I'm just passig the time
You could love me
if I knew how to lie

But who could love me?
I am out of my mind
Throwing a line out to sea
to see if I can catch a dream

The sun was always in her eyes
She didn't even see me
But that girl had so much love
She'd wanna kiss you all the time
Yeah, she'd wanna kiss you all the time

She said she won the world
At a carnival
But I'm sure it didn't ruin her
Just made her more interesting
I'm sure it didn't ruin her
Just made her more interesting

I, I know why, because when I look in her eyes
I just see the sky
When I look in her eyes well I
Just see the sky

I don't love you
I'm just passing the time
You could love me
if I knew how to lie

But who could love me?
I am out of my mind
Throwing a line out to sea
To see if I can catch a dream

I took a pause between the songs and then started on the next one. This one was 'Behind The Sea' by Panic! At The Disco. Abbey's favorite.

Our day dream spills from my corked head
Break free of my wooden neck
Left a nod over sleeping waves

Like bobbing bait for bathing cod
Floating flocks of candel swans
Slowly drift across wax ponds

The men all played along to marching drums
And boy did they have fun behind the sea
They sang hey!

so our matching legs Are marching clocks
And we're all too small to talk to god
Yeah we're all to smart to talk to god

Toast the fine folks casting silver crumbs
To us from the docks
Jinxed things ringing as they leak

Through tiny cracks in the board walk
Scarecrow, now its time to hatch
Sprouting sons and ageless daughters

Don't you know? Don't you know
That those watermelon smiles
Just can't ripen underwater
Just can't ripen underwater

The men all played along to marching drums
And boy did they have fun behind the sea
They sang hey!

so are matching legs Are marching clocks
And we're all too small to talk to god
Yeah we're all to smart to talk to god
Oh we're all too smart to talk to god

I ended it there and got my ukulele going on to the next song. Folkin around.

Allow me to exaggerate a memory or two
When summers lasted longer than,
Longer than we do
Where nothing really matter
Except for me to be with you
But in time we all forgot and we all grew

Your melody sounds as sweet
As the first time it was sung
With alittle bit more character for show
And by the time your fathers heard
Of all the wrong you've done
Then I'm putting out the lantern
Find your own way back home

If I've forgotten how to sing
before I've sung this song
I'll write it all across the walls
before my job is done
And I'll even have the courtesy
of admitting I was wrong
As the final words before I'm dead and gone

You've never been so divine
in accepting your defeat
And I've never been more scared to be alone
If love is not enough
to put my enemies to sleep
Then I'm putting out the lantern
Find your own way back home

I got my guitar again and closed out tge video singing girls/girls/boys.

I don't wanna hear
you've got a boyfriend
Sometimes you're better off alone
But if you change your mind
you know where I am
Yeah if you change your mind
You know where to find me
Cause I, won't ever wanna
be your boyfriend

And never did I think That I
would be caught in the way You've got me
Push another girl aside
And just give in

Girls love girls and boys
Girls love girls and boys
And never did I think that I
Would be caught in the way you've got me
But girls love girls and boys
And love is not a choice

Pose you've gotta save your reputation
Their close to finding out about you girlfriend
But if you change your mind
you know where I am
Yeah if you change your mind
You know where to find me
Cause I don't wanna save your reputation

And never did I think That I
would be caught in the way You've got me
Push another girl aside
And just give in

Girls love girls and boys
Girls love girls and boys
And never did I think that I
Would be caught in the way you've got me
But girls love girls and boys
And love is not a choice

I am just your villain
vying for attention from a girl
A girl who can't decide
Here's the reason why

Girls love girls and boys
Girls love girls and boys
And never did I think that I
Would be caught in the way you've got me
But girls love girls and boys
And love is not a choice

I turned off my camera and began editing everything together. I found photos of me Ryan and Abbey together just them and then some pride flags. I had the montage of the photos going as I sang not showing myself on screen at all except for in the photos with them. After that I watched through it and gave it a small smile before showing Wes to see what he thought.

"This is incredible." He said. I started crying watching it. He gave me a hug and then I went and uploaded the video. Once it uploaded me and Wes went for dinner and then came home. The responses on the video were mainly positive.

Hey guys! How are you! I'm doing alright. Still not the best but I'm managing. I don't feel completely empty and numb as I was yesterday (the last update) but still not good. Hope you are doing good.

This seems like a long chapter but most of it was lyrics. I just wanted for those who don't know the lyrics or even the band to be able to read them off. Those are some of my personal favorites and then it being a tribute to the shooting at the pride parade I had to put in girls/girls/boys. Those are some of my favorites off of pretty. Odd. Hope you liked it