Destroying everything {Lasercorn}

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Lasercorn

I watched as she laughed and acted as if nothing had changed. I wished I could be like her. How was she just ok. Maybe it didn't affect her like it did me. She turned 24 last week, Anthony left on her birthday, and she broke up with me. This has all happened in the span of a month.

I smile for the cameras and when people are looking, but alone I don't. I'm not happy. I want Alexis back and she told me maybe in the future we'd get back together. Maybe if I told her I loved her she'd take me back. I mean it. I really do love her.

I sighed as I sat up in bed. Was I wasting my time. What if she just said that to soften the blow. Its been almost three weeks since we had an actual off camera conversation. Maybe she didn't want to talk to me. I mean for the first week I didn't want to talk to her. I was afraid that I would break down in front of her. She's the first girl I've felt like this before since my ex.

Maybe she thinks I'm mad at her. I need to tell her I love her before she moves on. I just want her back.

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I texted her and asked her to meet me on the bridge in the park. It was hidden slightly by a few trees and it was right over a river that fed into a lake. I came here sometimes to think. I stood awkwardly as I waited for her. I saw her walk down the path towards the bridge. She wore her hair in a low pony tail and had a My Chemical Romance shirt on with black jeans and black converse. She wore a necklace that I could barely see from far away along with a bracelet.

She got to the bridge. I saw more closely that they were all skull accessories and she also had skull earrings in. "Hey Lasercorn." She said a small smile visible. "You wanted to meet me here?" She asked. "Ye-yeah. There's something I wanted to tell you." I stuttered slightly. She nodded for me to go on.

"Alexis you are the funniest, most beautiful, caring, and craziest person I've ever met. Someone I'm glad that I can call a friend. I'd walk through desserts and on hot coals for you. I'd go to extreme heights for you. And I needed to tell you. Because it's important to me and that you know...." I looked to my feet slightly before looking back into her eyes.

"I-I l-love y-y-you." I stammered. She looked at me with a blank expression. "Say that again." She said just above a whisper. "I love you." I said clearer. I saw tears come to her eyes. "I'm so glad you said that." She threw her arms around me.

"You...are?" I said confused, but relieved. "Yes. I umm. I love you too. I was scared to say it. First at least. The overwhelming thoughts of whether its too soon, if you don't feel the same, if you're going to hurt me. I was terrified to say it. And instead of dealing with it I ran away from it and....." She said into the crook of my neck. She lifted her head and looked at me.

"I just love you." She smiled pressing her lips to mine. We pulled apart. "I'm so relieved. In the least creepy and psychotic way, I can't stand not talking to you. Like really talking to you." I said. She giggled. "I'm glad you feel the same way." She said. "I thought you were upset with me. You had a right to be." She said.

"I couldn't. I wanted to wait to tell you I love you at least until we told the others but I just needed you to know." I said grabbing her hands. "Should we?" She asked. "Should we..." I looked at her. "Tell the others? And the fans. Well maybe not the fans yet." She said.

"Well sure the fans can know." I said. Then I thought about it. "Is it because of the whole Seth situation?" I asked. She nodded. "Its ok. If they judge you, you know in your heart that you are where you're supposed to be. Or where you think you're supposed to be." I said placing my hands on her shoulder. She looked up and smiled. "Ok lets do this." She said.

So now our couple is back! They are strong together and told eachother they love eachother and are soon to tell the others! Can I get a ooo! Ooo!