Vulnerable

September 23rd, 2011 (Age: 10)

Dear diary,

I'm so sorry I never wrote for so long. I really want to tell you something... But I have a feeling that is telling me not to. I'm scared if I tell people, the word will go around and a rumour will start and it will go all around the school. Well, here I go.

I told mom everything that happened with this dude named Daniel. This has been going on for three years and ever since grade four. Anyway, so (to me) it seemed like he follows me around all the time. So I asked my mom to email my homeroom teacher and she did cause she had the day off. My teacher then sent me to the therapist at school. So at class or I guess lunch, he wanted to see me so I went. He asked me questions then the next day I simply couldn't take it anymore. So at the end of the day I went up to Daniel and said "Daniel, I'm wondering if you can please stop following me?" He then cut me off and said "I'm not!". I said "I find you are to me." So then I said again, "I'm sorry but I'm not interested." Then I walked away to my locker. My body was shaking so bad. I was so nervous and scared. Why does all the bad things happen to me? It's not fair!

Today was a bad day. First, I had a nose bleed, then for my girls group at school this girl named Amanda told me that I looked different. I was wearing makeup, which I never do. I didn't know if that was a compliment or an insult so I asked her, "Is that a good thing?" She shrugged. That must mean she doesn't know. And another guy in my class did the same thing! It's not fair!
Let me think positive.. We had a fun day at school today. That's where I was a part of the girls group where you do fun things like your hair, makeup, nails and get full accessories then go for a photoshoot. We even got little photo albums of the pictures that were taken!

I have to go. I'll tell more tomorrow.

Sarah