Vulnerable

December 9, 2017 (Age: 17)

Dear Diary,

Well I haven't gotten the chance to discuss the new things that are occurring in my life.
Trust me, there is a lot.

Firstly, I need to address the elephant in the room. I have found a new love and I have a boyfriend. His name is Aiden O. So yes, the guy I have talked about previously is now my actual boyfriend. For numerous years, I have noticed Aiden and seen him as a stranger and as an isolated human that prefers to be alone. Knowing that, I have never bothered to speak to him. He stayed in his bubble and I stayed in mine. Back in September, Aiden began talking to me. And on November 30th (my birthday), he asked me out and now we are official.

How Aiden asked me out was out of the blue. So when I was out of the room, one of my other friends talked to him and asked when he is planning to ask me out. Aiden actually told me that he wasn't planning on asking me out when he did. He knew that I am busy with school, work and dance while he is busy with school, work, and basketball. So with both of us being so busy, he was originally going to wait it out for a bit when him and I are not so busy. But when I returned to the room, that same friend leaned over and asked when he is going to ask. And that he should do it now. Then Aiden turned to me all at random and told me, "People say we should be dating. What do you think about that?". Since it caught me so off guard, I looked at him with utter shock and our seven friends that were around at the time all began to cheer and freak-out. And of course, I started blushing. My friend frantically takes out his phone and starts recording a video. He began to ask if Aiden and I are official. I smiled, saying yes, and immediately all of our friends freaked out on what they witnessed.

Fun fact, Aiden actually did not know that video existed in my camera roll until today (10 days after we've been together). I showed him the video and I feel like I should send it to him. I might do that tomorrow. I thought it was so adorable because Aiden emphasizes that when he gets together with people, he feels obligated to have a date with them (at this point in time, we have been so busy with our life schedules). So roughly the third day of us being official, he came home from an out of town basketball game and I was just getting off work. So he met me in the high school parking lot. We chatted for a bit and when he hugged me, he told me "I promise I'll take you out on a date one day". Hearing that was super cute because I know that he is a man of his word.

On my birthday, he also gave me a beautiful silver necklace that has a pendant of ballet shoes because he knows how much I love dancing. It is beautiful. I've been wearing it everyday.

Now lets talk about today. Today is our moving day. We have sold the newly rebuilt house and my dad came up from the city and told me that he wants to meet Aiden. Dad told me to see if Aiden could come out to help us move and meet him (when in reality, Aiden ended up meeting six other friends of my parents).

Earlier this morning, Aiden and I decided to go for our first date; a morning coffee at Tim Hortons. Once he got to my place, I ended up driving. We got there and got our food. I paid Aiden $5.00 for my food (I would have paid more but I only had five dollars cash). Once we got our food, we sat down.

The way the sun was hitting his eyes and made them shine, fascinated me. They looked stunning. I realize stunning is not a masculine term to use but I have no other words that could fit it. Aiden's blue eyes are always beautiful to look into. But when the sunlight hit them, it gives them a different look. It is like shining a light through ripping ocean water. The patterns are fascinating and intriguing to look at and I couldn't help but stare.
During the moment of me staring at him, Aiden would not be looking at me. But when he would look at me, I'd immediately look away. Aiden brought that up and asked "what?" probably ten or more times. And every time I smiled, shook my head and said, "nothing". Just like he did to me the night of the play.

Of course, it wasn't "nothing". I was simply fascinated by Aiden as a whole. His eyes (primarily) like the way the sun made them shine a gorgeous blue. His appearance; like how the veins in his hands were visible and moved as he moved his hands. His actions; like how every so often as he talks to me, he would rub the right side of his face and look at me with only one eye.

Just him.

Aiden, by himself, is a very fascinating character that I have the privilege's to fall in love with and call my own. After our Tim Horton's coffee date, we made a quick stop to the flower shop because Aiden wanted to get some flowers for my mom. And with my help, I told him that my mom's favorite flowers were tiger lilies. We grabbed them and headed home. Once we got home and when Aiden gave her the flowers, my mom beamed a smile and even said she got goosebumps. Right then, I saw how happy she was and how much she already approves of him. Then Aiden met my father and gave him a handshake. After all the moving, he came back to my place for a bit and he talked to my parents. I was there, but I was primarily a by stander mostly standing around in silence.

When it was time for everyone to go home (we still had things to unpack and move to set up the apartment), I walked Aiden to his car. On the walk to the car, I told him that I feel like he met everyone that my parents are friends with. He laughed and said that he thought it went well. I agree, I believe it went well. When we got to his car, I gave him a long hug. I let out a sigh and Aiden pointed it out, saying that I "sighed with pleasure".
He was right; very right, in fact. Today was simply an amazing day. I got to go on a date with my man and got to be with him all day. Even though we were moving, he made the day more tolerable. I imagine if he wasn't around, the day would have dragged on for hours. As we continued to hug, I partially lifted my head so it was in the crook of his neck. And as we hugged, I felt his head lean down on mine. In this moment, I was quite tempted to kiss his cheek or something. But I didn't. I will save that for another day.
Once we hugged, I let him get in his car and told him to drive safe. He replied with "As I always do", then he closed his car door and drove off.

Just from talking to my mom, she seems like she absolutely loves him. It makes me happy that she approves of him so much. When Aiden wasn't around, and before he came back into the room as we were moving, I noticed she looked at me with a new kind of sparkle in her eyes. It was different to see her look at me the way she did. But she told me about how she really likes Aiden and the flowers he gave. Then she asked if I am happy, and I said exactly this, "Oh, hell yeah. I am."

Aiden has told me (and my parents) that I am his first girlfriend. Then he told me that he hasn't even had his first kiss yet. When he said that, it melted my heart. Hearing him say that makes me realize that I will be his first love, first girlfriend, and first kiss. And that makes me incredibly happy. I just can't wait for the day when we kiss and get to hold hands.

I am over the moon with how everything is going. Now I just have to meet his parents. Apparently, Aiden told me that his mom is mad at him because he is basically keeping me as his little secret. Ms.Omen even told Aiden that even though she hasn't met me yet, she believes that I am a catch and that Aiden shouldn't let me slip away.

I've rambled on for long enough.

Sarah