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Mark:

"In 1917, the military and economic weakness and the poor supply were the main reasons why the people were very unhappy and that caused the czarist domination to fail. The people... Mark? Markie?"

I flinched when Jinyoung's voice reached my ears. I hadn't even noticed that he had spoken to me. Actually, I had been about to fall asleep in a sitting position. I felt extremely tired.

My best friend was here to help with the homework Jackson had brought me this week. He was currently trying to explain our history topic and I gave my best to pay attention but I couldn't really concentrate.

"I'm sorry, Jinyoungie. I wasn't paying attention. Could you explain it again?" I said with a smile before I yawned. The ravenette placed his book on the table and came over to the bed sitting down next to me.

"You're tired, Mark. I can explain it hundreds of times and you won't understand it. Let's stop for today." He smiled softly and took my books and papers from the bed placing them on the bedside table.

I stretched and laid down on my back. "We had a rough night. She didn't want sleep and kept on crying. I think she had stomach ache." I looked over to Lily who was peacefully sleeping in her crib.

She had cried a lot during the last night which had caused me to stay awake just in case she would need me. I was completely ok with that. As her father, I was there whenever she needed me.

And crying was the only way she could tell me that something was wrong. Luckily, she didn't scream that loud so neither Jackson nor his parents had been woken up because of her.

I knew that I could have asked Jackson for help but he was having exams at the moment and he definitely needed to sleep. It was important that he got good grades so he would pass this year.

"Why didn't you say anything? We also could've met tomorrow or on Sunday." Jinyoung smiled a bit and covered my body with the blanket sitting down on the edge of the bed after he did that.

"You sacrifice your Friday night to tutor me. I would have felt bad if I had cancelled today." I looked up to my best friend and closed my eyes for a short moment but opened them again.

"You can always tell me if something is up. And I know that Lily can change plans. It's completely ok if you want to sleep now instead of talking about the Russian revolution." Jinyoung stroked over my head.

I closed my eyes feeling more tired with every second. The younger's hand in my hair made me feel more sleepy and I slowly drifted in a deep slumber. But unluckily, I didn't have the chance to fall asleep.

Lily started to cry and I opened my eyes again. Jinyoung quickly got up from the bed. "Stay. I'm going to check on her." He walked over and lifted my daughter out of her crib. I sat up and looked over to them.

He held her carefully and pressed a kiss on her head. "Don't cry, little princess. Everything is ok." He said quietly and started to softly rock her in his arms. I smiled and laid down on my bed again.

Jinyoung was a great godfather. He treated her so well and I felt like he absolutely adored her. It meant so much to me that he accepted her and gave her as much love as he always gave me.

Lily slowly calmed down but she still seemed to be a bit uncomfortable. "Rub her belly. That should help her to relax." I told my best friend and pulled my Pikachu plushy in my arms.

Jinyoung nodded and did as I told him. The quiet sounds of discomfort went silent and Lily looked up to the man who was holding her. I simply laid there and looked over to two of my favorite people.

I really enjoyed it to watch my friends together with my daughter. They all treated her so great. It was like Lily, my friends and me were one big family. I was so happy that I had people I could count on.

My parents and my siblings were also helping me as much as they could. Just like Jackson. He wasn't the perfect father but he gave his best. Nobody was perfect and he grew with every task he mastered.

Of course, there were still things we had to learn but we actually began to grow to some kind of family. At least for now. No one could say if we would manage it to work as a team in the future.

We were still completly different types of people and we had a different view on living. Sometimes, I wondered if things would be different if our kind of relationship would be another one.

"You know, sometimes I wish I could give her a real family." I suddenly said, causing Jinyoung to look at me. "A real family?" He asked, raising his eyebrows. The younger walked over and sat down next to me.

"Like parents who are happily together and raise her in a beautiful house with a very beautiful backyard in a child-friendly neighbourhood and have a dog." I explained earning a chuckle in response.

"Oh Markie, you're 17. No one expects you to have a perfect cliché life." Jinyoung said smiling and placed Lily on the bed next to me. "But I want her to have a good life. She should be happy." I sighed.

"Lily is happy. You are her father and that's the biggest gift she can get and I know you can give her a good life but maybe you're thinking a bit too big." The younger stroked over my daughter's head.

"Think of an own apartment instead of a whole house. It could be close to a park so you have a place to go out. And maybe Youngjae let's you take Coco sometimes. I'm sure this will be more than enough for now." He said.

I nodded slowly. Maybe he was right and I was just thinking a bit too much. Lily should have the good life and it was my task to make sure that she would get it. But maybe perfect wasn't always the best.

Buying a house was something I definitely couldn't effort at the moment. I had to think of the possibilities I had and at the moment. Lily was still a baby and didn't even need a backyard or a dog.

"You always know what to say when I feel down." I sat up and hugged my best friend. He hugged me back and chuckled. "I'm your best friend. It's my task to cheer you up when you need it." He answered.

"Thank you so much." I yawned loudly and laid back down. Jinyoung smiled and ruffled my hair. "Anytime Markie. And now go to sleep. You really need it. I'm going to stay and keep an eye on Lily." He said.

I nodded slowly and buried my face in my pillow. I was finally able to allow myself to drift off to sleep. Jinyoung would be there and take care of Lily and I didn't have to worry anything.

I was grateful that I had a best friend who was always helping me and never left my side. People like him were the ones who gave me my strength and the feeling that I would manage it to be a great father.

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