The Life Of Mia Parker

Chapter 22

Hayden's POV:

"It doesn't even matter anyway." Stephanie laughed. "Because it turns out he's gay!"

The moment she said that my entire body froze. What?! How does she know? Did Mia tell her? No. Mia wouldn't. I know she wouldn't.

Everybody's eyes were all on me. Fuck. I could see Mia looking at me sadly. I need to get out of here I thought before barging past all the people and running out the door. I could still feel all of their eyes still on me.

As I made it out the door I felt a hand grab my arm and turned around to see Josh standing there.

"Hayden, are you okay?" He asked worriedly.

"Okay?! Okay? No I'm not fucking okay! Everyone knows. They all know!" I exclaimed. "What am I going to do! They weren't supposed to find out yet!"

"Hayden calm down, it'll be fine." Josh said reassuringly.

"It won't fucking be fine Josh. They all know and it won't be long until my dad finds out. You know what he's like. He won't accept this!"

"Maybe he will. Maybe he'll surprise you. It's nothing to be ashamed off." Said Josh

"You don't know him like I do." I responded sadly.

"I know. Hayden I'm not going to tell you to tell him. I'll always be here for you. But like you said he will find out eventually so maybe it's best you tell him before he finds out from somebody else."

"I don't know if I can." I said honestly.

"I know Hayden. Just take some time and decide what you want to do, I'll be here no matter what." He said whilst grabbing my hand.

"Thanks Josh. I'm sorry about all of this. I know it's hard not being able to have a proper relationship. I will sort this out. I promise."

"I know you will." He responded with a smile. "Do you want me to stay with you?"

"That's ok. I think I just need some time alone to think, I'll call you later"

"Okay, call me if you need anything." He said before walking off.

After Josh left I decided to walk home. Whilst I was walking home I walked past this park that me, my mum, Nate and my dad used to come to all the time. We spent a lot of time here when we were kids. I used to love this park. Everything was good back then, we were all happy, including dad. He's never around anymore. He's barley ever there for Izzy. Me and Nate are the ones who turn up to her school plays, who pick her up from school, who read her a bed time story. He doesn't do nothing.

I realised that I was gay about a year ago, when I first met Josh. I find myself attracted to him and at first it was all to much. I ignored it for a while, I was in denial. But it wasn't long before I found myself falling for him. We decided that we would keep a secret, just until I felt ready to tell people. Everyone knew Josh was gay but nobody cared, and to be honest I didn't care what others thought. I was just worried about my dad. He's not the most understanding person in the world, I don't know what will happen when he finds out.

He wants me to take over the family hotel company, which I don't mind considering I actually enjoy it however I wasn't his first choice. Initially he wanted Nate to take over but Nate didn't want to, he wants to pursue a career in writing and let's just say that didn't exactly sit well with dad. He went ballistic, he wanted his oldest son to take over his company but Nate just did not want to. This fight went on a for long time and it put a strain on their relationship. They don't talk anymore, not really, unless absolutely necessary. It's weird, Nate used to be so close to him.