Loving Every Day #HFE

Chapter 78

"Luke, Luke wake up" I could Here Sarah saying as she was shaking me
I opened my eyes and she was so concerned looking
"What happened Luke" she said
I handed her the letter
"She killed herself Sarah she died because of me" I said
She look the letter
"What are you saying"
I saw her read over the letter and her eyes filled up
"You are not to blame Luke, Caroline was a troubled girl these last few years, this is her way of blaming someone rather than herself for her bad choices" she said
"How can you say that about your own daughter" I said
"Luke you weren't here, you never had to answer the phone to your grandson who was so upset he couldn't even speak." She said stranding up and walking over to the window
"What are you saying"
"Luke, she would go out drinking and leave Thomas in by himself and when it would get dark he would be so scared and call me."
"Why didn't you take custody of him. Why was he allowed to stay with her" I shouted
"Luke I'm sorry don't get mad. We tried to get him come live with us but he said it was him mummy and he had to live with her and look after her until his daddy comes to save him"
The tears where running down my face
"Aw that poor boy. Was she abusive to him? Was he ever hurt" I said sobbing
"Nothing physical but she yelled a lot. Waylon and I would try and take him on days out as much as possible" she said
"Was it me who made her the way she turned out" I asked
"Good god no Luke please don't think like that because if you do it will get a grip of you and it will bring you down" she said
"Well what happened" I asked
"About five years ago she met someone and he died in a car wreck, she just went downhill from there. She blamed Thomas for her being alone"
"Oh my god, why didn't she just contact me and tell me about him. I would have looked after them, both of them. Did y'all know I was the Dad" I asked
"Yes we knew but she told us never to tell anyone."
"Well you should have or we might not be where we are, standing mourning for someone who didn't want to be alive. Someone who was an asshole of a mother." I shouted
"Luke please she had her good points"
"I'm sorry Sarah I can't be in the house any longer. I taking Thomas's things and going back to the hotel." I said grabbing the bags and walking to the door
"Are you coming to the funeral" she asked sheepishly
"I will be there for Thomas and no one else. Him Sophie and my new baby are my priority now. Not some drunk who selfishly took her own life." I said slamming the door
I was angry that I got in my truck and punched fuck out the steering wheel. I picked up my phone and called Sophie.
"Baby I'm on my way. We need to talk...."