Loving Every Day #HFE

Chapter 77

I sent Sophie a text as I sat in my truck waiting on Caroline's mama
Me: Hey baby I'm just at Caroline's place waiting on her mama coming so I can get Thomas's things.
Sophie💖: Ok baby. How did it go with her parents xxx
Me: Worse than I expect, her dad was drunk and he told me I was not welcome at the funeral. But fuck him I will be there for Thomas xx
Sophie💖: Aww baby that sucks. Yeah your right this is about Thomas paying respect to his mama. Was her mama ok? Xx
Me: Yeah she was she was embarrassed by his behaviour, she is sneaking out to let me in the house xx
Sophie💖: Oh that's not so good baby, he will come round he is just hurting that's all. Text me when you leave Caroline's ok. Love you xx
Me: Ok sweetheart, I love you to xx

I saw Sarah's car pulling up so I got out my truck
"Hey" I said hugging her
"Hey, I'm so sorry about Waylon he is devastated. He does asking think a lot of you Luke, I think he is looking for someone to blame and you are an easy target"
"I know. I did love Caroline when we where together and when we split I was heartbroken to say the least"
She unlocked the door and I took a deep breathe and walked in. It was a mess she must have been struggling more than she let on.
"Oh my god I didn't think she got this out of control" he mama said
"Thomas said she had been yelling at him a lot and he actually said he wanted to come live with me and Sophie. So now he thinks Caroline passing is his fault" I said
We walked into Thomas's room and I started putting his things in bags
"Awww poor Thomas. Are you gonna by to keep him" she asked
"Of course I am he is my son." I said
"Will you let us see him"
"Of course I will, you are his grandparents you can see him whenever you want" I said
I packed all I could, his clothes, toys pictures etc and Sarah and I went into the living room. On the sofa there was a photo album. I picked it up and opened it and the tears started to fall
"Luke honey what is it" Sarah said
"It's a scrapbook from all the dates and everything we did during college, she even followed my career all these years" I said as Sarah sat down next to me
"I had no idea she kept all this" I said
"Luke she loved you with all her heart. When you left to go to Nashville she cried for a month and then she found out she was pregnant with Thomas, she was going to tell you but she didn't want to ruin your dream" she said
"She should have told me I've missed so much that's why I don't wanna lose him and I'm going to give him everything he never had." I said
"Luke all he needs is a dad" she said
"I know i know and when the new baby comes I want him not to feel left out"
We continued cleaning up a little and then I noticed a letter on the mantle addressed to me. I opened it

Dear Luke

If you are reading this then I have succeeded in what I wanted. I am so sorry but I just couldn't live without you. I still loved you Luke and nothing against Sophie but I couldn't continue seeing you with her. Please do not tell Thomas I did this intentionally and if he asks it is not his fault. Please look after him and love him every day and when your new baby arrives please don't shun him. Tell mama I'm sorry and tell daddy that I don't want him being angry with you, I was as much to blame. I love you Luke. Sorry

Yours Caroline xx

The room started to spin and I felt myself falling. She fucking killed herself