I woke up and felt another body next to mine. Immediately, I took the blanket to cover my naked body and got off the bed. I started searching for my clothes from last night, picking up my panties and bra and my dress.
I felt sick. Why did I let it happen? I felt horrible. He has a girlfriend.
Just as I was about to leave, he moved. I froze in my place, sure to make no movement or sound. He went back to sleep again. I sighed in relief. But it soon washed off when I heard his phone go off. He groaned. I reached the door and got out of the room. But I stopped as soon as I heard him pick up the phone.
"Hello?", he said in a sleepy voice.
.
"Good morning, babe! What's up?"
.
"Yeah, okay, I'll meet you there."
.
"See you there, baby. Love you."
Tears started to well up in my eyes. I quickly rubbed my eyes. I didn't want to cry over him. I made a go for the stairs so I wouldn't have to face him. Just as I reached the bottom of the stairs, I heard his foot steps. I ran to the door.
I let out a sigh when I was out of his house. I heard the front door open, so I started to take off again.
"Hey! Wait!", he yelled. But I didn't, in fact I ran faster. But not fast enough.
"God dammit! I told you to wait!", he said as he took ahold of my waist.
"Leave me alone!", I grumbled.
"Stop fighting me!"
"No! I won't stop fighting!"
"Why? Fuck- babe, why?"
"Because I won't", I replied, but muttering "because I love you" under my breath, so he wouldn't hear.
He sighed, "At least let me drop you back to your place."
I gave in and let him take me to his car.
***
Sitting in his car, I couldn't help but think of the time we were together. I still remember the day he asked me to be his girlfriend. I had squealed and said "Yes! Oh god, yes Harry!".
Did he really not remember? Did he not remember he loved me back then? Did he even love me?
I felt like laughing at myself right now. He was a cheat, and no matter how many times he would say he's mine, he never was.
I hadn't realised that I had let a few tears roll down my cheek.
"We're here", he said, breaking me out of my thoughts. I took off the safety belt and opened the door to get out but he stopped me.
"Y/N"
"Yes, Harry?"
"I- Nothing. Take care."
I nodded as I sighed. What was I even expecting? I have too high expectations.
***
I stumbled into my house after a long night of clubbing. I was drunk. I looked down at my phone and dialed his number. I was about to hang up when he picked up.
"Hello?", he said sleepily.
I didn't utter a word.
"Who is it?", I heard her voice, making me gasp instantly. He was with her? Why did I call him?
I was about to hang up again but he spoke again. He must have heard me.
"Y/N?"
"Are you alright?"
"No", I barely whispered.
"I'm coming over.", he said before hanging up.
I let out a sob and threw my phone on the opposite wall.
Why am I so weak?
"Y/N?", I heard his voice.
I looked up in his direction with my teary eyes.
He sat next to me, pulling me in his lap.
"Babe, what happened?", he asked, holding me close to him. I clutched at his shirt and let my tears fall.
"Why?", I whispered.
"What?"
"Why her?"
"Baby", he sighed.
"Don't pity me please. Just tell me, why her?"
"I-I don't know."
"Do you love her?"
"No."
"Why not? You left me for her."
"I don't know, Y/N."
"What do you know then? Why are you here? You were with her, why did you come here?"
"Baby please."
"Leave, Harry."
"No", he replied sternly.
"No? Why not?"
"Because I don't want to leave you breaking."
"You already did that, Harry."
"I can't leave you."
"You have her."
"I don't need her."
"Then why did you leave?"
"Because I was stupid."
"You love her though, don't you?"
"No, I don't."
"Why are you here?"
"Because I care about you."
"You don't, Harry", I sighed.
"I do, I really do care about you."
"You're trying to convince yourself."
"No, I want you to believe me. I care about you more than her."
"She's your girlfriend, Harry."
"And still you mean more to me than she ever will."
"Harry."
"Y/N."
"What?"
"I love you."
"Don't say that. You left me the last time you said it."
"But I am here to stay this time. Believe me, baby, I love you."
"What about-?"
"I'll tell her. You need me right now."
"I want to be there when you tell her, then."
"Okay."
"Okay."
"I missed you, Y/N."
"I missed you too."
"I love you, I promise I won't leave you this time."
"I hope you keep your promise."
"I will."
"I love you too, Harry."
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