I wasn't even sure how my life had taken this turn. I threw my bag on the couch as I ran into my room. Like every other day, everything was going bad. Once again I was curled up in my bed, not bothering to eat or anything.
I got up after an hour, leaving my room to get to the bathroom. I opened the tap of the bath and watched it fill. But one thing was still on my mind. I opened the cupboard and took out the box of blade.
I looked at my reflection, regretting everything. I took the blade to my wrist.
One. Two. Three. Four.
They were all big, deep cuts. Opening the wounds from a few days ago. My eyes started to well up.
"You're ugly, a disgrace, you're stupid, you're fat, you deserve to die!", I yelled at my reflection. Angry tears rolled down my cheeks. I smashed the mirror in anger.
I got into the bath tub. The warm water relaxed me. But I wasn't going to use it for that. I kept on cutting, making new scars and reopening the old ones. But that didn't matter now. I was obviously going to die soon. Just as I was about to fully get inside the water, I heard a voice.
"Sana?"
No. No. He can not be here this early. I put my face inside the water breathing the water in. I was waiting and waiting to get unconscious, but I could literally feel him getting close to me.
"Sana, where are you?", I could hear his muffled voice. I was slowly slipping away.
Then I heard the doorknob rattle.
"Sana!", he was inside. He put his hand under my back and my knees to get me out of the water.
"Why? Why did you do this?"
"Why would you do anything like this?"
My shallow breathing got back to normal as I spat out the water.
"Why are you here, Harry?", I said with a hoarse voice.
"You weren't picking up your phone, I was worried!"
"Why, Harry?"
"Stop speaking! Do you see what you have done to yourself!? There is blood all over the place! We have to get you to the doctor! I'll call the ambulance."
"Don't", I said. Shivering.
"No. You don't have a say in this", he said covering me with a blanket. Tears started fall down his cheek.
"You don't realise what you did to yourself! How could you! Did you even think about everyone else, Sana?"
"Why do you think I did this? I thought about everyone. The world will be a lot better place after one less deprived soul."
"You don't see it, do you? I care about you! Fuck. I love you! Please don't do this to me and your family!"
"Harry", I sighed.
"Please, don't say that. Don't."
"Why do you care?"
"Because I love you. And I always will."
"I am not even pretty", I muttered under my breath, hoping he wouldn't hear me. Apparently, he did.
"You're not. You're beautiful and no matter how cheesy it sounds but you are the most beautiful woman I have ever laid my eyes on, Sana. You're beautiful, and I will never let you go."
"I am just a fish in the sea, Harry. There are many more you'll find, who are way prettier than me."
"I don't think so, you are the only one I want. And I love you."
I sighed as he give me a kiss on my forehead and hugged me.
"I love you too."
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