15 Reasons Why | "You Could Save Her?"

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I stop and rest. I ran pretty far from whatever was going on. I'm starting to think this place isn't her world of thoughts. It's too real.
I sigh.
I continue walking. Wherever I was going, I was heading there. Somewhere.

I guess now is a good time to rethink about those tapes again. The ones I've heard so far. Again.

I know Rikkun made these tape for a reason. A reason I'm not getting at all. Or maybe it isn't for me. Maybe it's for someone else, someone who did not help?.. The tapes can mean anything. Attention. Truth. Point of view. Dark secrets. Anything! But Rikkun decided to place the tapes as a game. With riddles and twists. Like, a free roaming option. 15 tapes. 15 people. And each of the 15 can appear in later tapes. Just like David's. Kai's tape was never mentioned again. This is all too, real. She mentioned a mother in these tapes. A adult. Rikkun was always skittish around adults. She wasn't, I would say; afraid, but she never really did trust them sometimes. Yet she understood them. She understood higher perspectives and lessons, something I have to think about for a week. I mean, aside from her always telling me, "You're movement is loud," I didn't understand!
I frown.
She was well educated. Not in school work, but in higher adulthood. She'll just hide it all with jokes.

I should probably get out of this dimension. Though I know I'm missing something. I turn around. I had to go back and find Rikkun. Whether it's really her or not!

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Again a dark and cold forest. "Rikkun!" I shout out. A flock or birds fly out from some trees. I glance around hoping to see the white wolf. Nothing. "Rikkun, please? I just want to talk to you.." My voice cracks.

"Is that all you ran back for?" Her voice spoke.

I turn around and look up. There she sat. On a tree branch. She wasn't a wolf this time. She wore blue shorts and only had a bandage around her coverage as a top. She wore her black jacket at least.. She kicks her legs, "You really are clingy." I swallowed the gulp I had stuck, "Yeah, but that's not the reason."
"I know, Clay." She smiles softly.
"Can you..maybe come down?" I ask.
"No. I like it up here."
"Cat."
She folds her arms, ticked, "I am not!" She leans against the tree and turns away, "You are such a boof!"
I chuckled. I'm getting somewhere. "Alright, Rikkun." I pause for a moment. What could I ask? The tapes would just cut me off. Maybe I can ask about family? Why her house seemed too mute?
Rikkun looks down back at me.

"What happened to your family? Wasn't there people living at your place?"

"What are you talking about? I lived alone since ten.." Her smile fades, "My mother passed away and my father left to hell knows where."

Am I even talking to the right girl?

"What happened?" I asked.

She pinches her ear. Was she nervous? "Well, it's a long story. To make it short, my blood, I know it sounds crazy, but I was never liked from my people. I resemble my mother. Neither of them liked us. From what I was told, she gave me away. My mother was never heard from again. My father, well, I never really got to know him well. So "father-figure" was low." She looks away, "I know, it's a dark story. How could such a quiet and innocent person, like me, carry so much?"

"I-I'm sorry."
"Don't be. You're lucky to have yourself parents together. For the moment I suppose."
"Huh?"
"Clay," She fidgets with her hand, "Some secrets will come out soon."

I changed the subject, "What about siblings?"
She blinks a few times, "Heh," She looks around playfully, "Where? I had siblings? Geez, are you on drugs?" She giggles and looks back to me.

I don't know, maybe I am on some type of pill. This is all so blocked I'm getting lost! "What about your bloodline?"

She sighs, "My mother's bloodline caught onto me. It isn't bad, in fact it's really helpful sometimes. I just need to practice. Anyways, their special gifts. Some people are born with it. Some have to learn it," she scratches her neck, "though, some people would think negative of it. I somewhere around 1800's? I think. They'd kill any person with any of the gifts."

Jesus Christ, what were these gifts anyways? Poor Rikkun, I feel as if I met her somewhere else. This version of her. "Is uh, is this place one of those gifts?" I ask.

She smiles, "It's my work," she taps at the side of her head, "I have a creative mind. So I'm able to create worlds like this." She stands on the branch, "It's amazing! Adventure. Nature. Excitement. Danger. It's like a book!"

"S-so what about the wolf?"

"You ask too much, Clay." She climbs down the tree, "But yeah, the wolf and others are a part of me."

Others?

I was to busy in my thoughts I didn't notice she walked to me. I jumped, "H-hey." She smiles, "Hi."

I could ask other things. I could keep asking about this place or bloodline. I could ask anything at the moment. I'd be asking too much. Just like she stated not so long.

"Clay," she said, "I don't see why you stress yourself out for some answers you do not need at the moment."

I frown.

She pokes my cheek, "Cheer up. Things haven't changed. Just stories unfolding slowly."

"I want you back." My voice cracks.

She looks at me confused. Her eyes..

"I don't want to listen to the tapes. I don't want to slowly understand everything. I just want you. I want you back. Back in the other world!" Tears fall from my eyes, "I hate it! It isn't the same, I can't even think straight. I just want you back.."

She wipes the tears out of my eyes and cups my cheeks. Her hands were a little cold, like always. "I haven't gone anywhere, Clay. I never will."

She pulls me into a hug.

"You're strong. And I know you deny it, but you are. I can't always be the shield. It'll break soon. Clay, honey, you still have a lot to learn through those old tapes. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't always be there. I'm sorry I can help much. Whatever is going on, school. Life. Own self. I understand, I've been through it."

"You don't understand.." I crack again, hugging her tight.

Rikkun sighs. "It's okay.." She pulls back and turns around, "you should probably go."

"No I'm not leaving. Rikkun-"

"Go before she questions my existence. Clay, I have no part in her world. Please, just go before this swallows you whole. Before they come. Now go! We'll meet again. And when that day comes, you'll know what to do. I still...."