15 Reasons Why | "You Could Save Her?"

Cassette 10: Side B

I've been hearing a lot of changes about the school for a while. Which shouldn't matter, but it bothers me. Let me explain. Ever since that whole "shooting" happened. Our school has just gone to complete shit. They posted a video of students "vocabulary", so basically those small slang words and stupid dances. It's honestly just making fun of the generation. The student who taught them was already out of the school. Now our "safety" is just bad. They mentioned metal detectors, but they set down trackers in our ID's.
Without your ID you won't get anywhere. No lunch. No breakfast. You either pay 13 bucks or sit in detention. The tracker updates every 28 minuets. So there goes our little privacy. How do they expect us to trust them again?
Hoods- oh boy- if you refuse to take it off you are in support of violence or threatening the teacher or worker there. Headphones are prohibited as well.
I get it- it's for a "safety". Though it's more of a jailhouse funhouse.

Might as well close down the school and homeschool. It's "safer" that way.

I doubt anyone will harm our school. Look at us- we completely fuss about the little shit. So do teachers.

I was supposed to graduate early in Sophomore year, but they changed it to Junior year. So all my credits and points? Gone. Poof. So I'm upset because of that.

And when people do tell me "you're gonna get in trouble" it makes me want to chug a bottle down their throats. A bottle of  hot pepper drink or something.

To add more to this insane school, they created an app for teachers. So say a fire started or someone caught a kid with a gun or knife- or a school fight- all they do is press the button on their phones. And apparently in seconds a police or more will come.
There goes our taxes and funds I guess.

And the uniforms? Oh lord, maybe next year. Backpacks? We don't know if they're gonna do that clear and mesh.

Welcome back to hell. "Have a fantastic day" they say. No wonder kiddos were chugging down Clorox and Tie pods. It all makes sense, heh.

Enough will the school shit, Amber this is your side of the tape.

We met in summer school and talked throughout our Freshman days. We met up again at the school to change our schedules. "Hi Rikkun, like your hair style."
"Oh, Hey. I like yours too." Amber asks me to come sit next to her in the office. So I did because I honestly didn't know anyone else in the room. And the offices down the hall were packed with students and angry parents- because it was only a day to change things. "Haven't you heard? Some students might be in trouble for piercings," she whispers to me. "But I only have ear piercings." "I know, but I'm just letting you know. This school is crazy."

It honestly was. I can't even wear my jacket of my favorite anime because it was either a "Metal band" and because it had "Death" on it with a eerie "demon" drawn onto it. It wasn't a "demon" it was a "Shinigami", kinda like a soul reaper. But in English phrases it would be a death god.

"So I heard you're actually joining that class?"
"Yeah, is it bad?"
"No I just thought you weren't that type of person. You're too nice."

Ouch?

Amber you must've noticed my vein pop out from my neck or something, because you laughed saying "I was just kidding. See that's why I love to mess with you."
Well, at least we had one class together. A language class.
I smiled and shook my head, "You're still a brat."

"Larsson, you're up."

I wasn't exactly ready for my name to be called. I jumped up.

And again, I don't know if I was wearing something wrong or anything, but I felt eyes from girls following me as I entered the door to the office of Sophomores. Freshman, Juniors, a little Seniors- I almost tripped.

I told the office my ID and small information and got straight on with my schedule. I didn't want a class with a certain someone.
She turns her screen more to her side. I knew something was wrong with our schedules.

That's why two of my classes had switched. I mentioned it earlier in this tape.

"Could I maybe graduate early this year?" I ask.
"Not until Junior."

I remember I overheard a student, back in Freshmen year, that hardly anyone graduates early.

I left and head back to Amber. "How'd it go?"
"Shi- I mean, alright." I felt my senses perk up remembering there were teachers in the main office behind me. She laughs at me. I went off to leave, but Amber had stopped me.

"Hey, are you doing OK?"
I look at her so confused. "I saw you get taken away from Mid school, you were breaking in tears so silently. Are you feeling better this year and next?"

When I was being taken away, I did see her stare at me, but I kept my head down looking at my moving feet.

"I'll be fine. Besides, I know I have a little strength in me." I tell her, "I have friends that are my family. I wouldn't want to hurt them or scare them if I had done anything wrong."

Amber smiles, "Well that's good! If you need anything, remember that we have first together."

I nod my head yes, "I will Amb."

I left the school walking back home.

Amber, I'm still edging on if I should fully trust you or not. You talk to David for a long time if I can remember. Ky even did, and everyone warned me not to be her friend.

I swear everything happens in Summer school for me.. When I had told Amber I was a small friend of Ky, she snapped like a girl being cheated on. See Ky was, I'm guessing, this big mean bully. That's what I've been hearing. When I finally saw her and met her- funny story she grabbed and shook me asking for answers about a "friend". I told her no. I was skittish at first, but when I took a good look at her- even if she was really close up to me- she didn't look so scary. At that time I was with Miguel. So she hugged me saying I was too adorable and squished my face. She leaves and I remember saying, "No problem?" Trish, Miguel, and Javier looked at me so surprised. Like I had befriended a wild animal.
Days past and Ky and I had became Gym buddies. She ruffled my hair and pets my like her cat. Which- was weird- but I didn't mind it at all. She didn't kill me like rumors had said.
And when I did broke up, my first relationship, she sat next to me. "I'm not gonna leave until you tell me what the fuck is wrong." So I wiped my tears and told her what had happened. She was upset and told me to not cry about fuckboys or anything so low. She cups my face, "You are better than this."
When I met her in Freshman, first class, she hugged me. "Kitty!" She'd say.

Amber told me not to talk about her when I'm around her, so I didn't really mind. She was narcissistic. I get it. There was times Amber tried to change who I was, which didn't go anywhere. I think I've turned more into in asshole than ever. Sad to say I don't regret it.

High school is really changing me. Not in the good way people would expect. That's the sad part. If those people could see what students see and hear, I think we'd understand each other a little better.

And that's all I want.

Understanding.

A glass shattering is heard. Understanding is all we need, r-right? Her voice shakes. Was it Mary torturing her do record all this? Did Mary sent those people to come after me? Is Mary part of those Clans? Why did she hate Rikkun so much?..

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