Cassette 13: Side B

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But it was never enough, right David? Who's the wuss now? I see how you roll your eyes and look up and away like you're a blonde with a ponytail. Perfection. The moment you saw me walk out of the changing room, that changing room, were you surprised? Were you? Be honest now. I love to hear reactions.

So let's talk about the Sweet 16, oh wait- it was near your place. How can I forget. David, I can't believe you're my height level. Like, OK, you're smart. Not smart enough. And who cares about the stupid trackers now? I certainly don't give a fuck. "Waiting for you"? Oh please, I have friends and a lover to wait for. Who do you have? Certainly not your daddy and mommy. So let me be clear, David.

Write your name out of that list. I'm changing. And boy do I ache for a swing. I don't care if you're in the Green bullshit or there for the games. The club is hidden behind the Green. So work will and might have to be a thing. Just leave it alone. Yes I'm sure you might have friends there, but do you really feel them standing to block a bullet for you? Didn't think so. Oh- and what would happen if Kevin knew about this? Uh oh~ And what about Edward? How about Raul? My favorite boy? My best friends? Shawn? Oh David, I know I lot of big guys. Like Jayden and Raymond. I feel bad for a white boy like you. So tell me, a shy girl with guys like these. "Slut" I know. What if I got Jackson on you? He wouldn't like that. And don't start with the "I don't talk about her" bullshit. We all know you act like a girl on Xbox just to get friends. You're depressing.

But I'm glad you're getting my share. Oh, me uploading that video? Sure I'll do that. Got it saved in my phone. How  does it feel? Terrible huh? Makes you mad real quick?
That's how I felt when you did your shit.

I'll wait for the day someone knocks you to the ground. Tackles. I'd love to see it, too. Then you'll understand the meaning of limp and pain.

Why am I talking like this? You might ask. Hm. You don't need an answer. You're "smart" to figure it out. Oh! Wait a minute! I have screenshots~ Somewhere hidden in my phone, of course. "I don't even mention her anymore" yet you still hold that bullshit. You make me laugh. Ha-ha-ha. I might as well finish the Reaper's job. Right? Or can you do us the honors?

Too far? I thought it was funny.

Oh hey, I suddenly remembered us being outside from the Intermediate school with our class. What did you do? Unzipped my jacket and try to grab me. So mature..
Or how about that last day of school in that year? Hands over me..

"This year I have things to think about" other than food? Being honest with you. I wouldn't want to die from my own body. Just saying. I'd rather die protecting someone. Or just a good purpose for what I did. I know you know what I mean.

I'd rather see my Ex than you.
"I dated her, I don't know why she's denying it" of course. Why on Earth would I date you? If I did date you I would have been long gone dead! You don't deserve my lips and attention. So thanks. And for you to tear my planner up because it had hearts covering up some pages because I was crushing on someone- "He doesn't like a girl like you." Thanks again, dickhead. Thanks so much.

And now you want to ruin the best relationship I'm in. Sure, go "gay for him". Might as well drown yourself in rainbows.

Just stop following me. Keep doing it and see what happens. If you trip down the stairs, don't blame me. I warned your stupid ass. You want to feel the same pain- I'll give you the same pain.

Remember~ Even the silent people can plot murder. I actually like that quote so much, it's a little inspiring if you think of it in a good way.

I wonder if you're actually reading my stuff. Or listening to the tapes. What, are you going to cry to Grandma and the teachers to take them down? "She's harassing me through the media" but you did the same exact thing to me. You never took it off. So why should I stop and delete all this? You fucked up, David. You are a fuck up.

Again, just leave. You probably won't stand a chance.

But either way, we'll see which on of us will leave first. One who stands will own everything. The loser can kiss the floor.

Don't. Cheat.

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