15 Reasons Why | "You Could Save Her?"

...Final Cassette...

So..looks like you heard all the way through, huh? That's uh.. quite a surprise. Just because you heard this story doesn't mean you're really off the game. So what?.. Maybe David and I did become friends years- such months later after my disappearance to another state. And maybe I am happy with Clay right now. Does it really matter now?
For those whom tried to tear me down and push me towards suicide, are you happy?

I probably mentioned this so many times, but the days I've cried. I remember how I was then. The feeling of the sharp object glazing just above my skin. Aching to cut. I mean now you can probably just see my faint healed scars on my skin. I'm happy, aren't I?

And to my future self, if you ever find this or even care. Know that you made it. With whatever future you have. Please take care of yourself, because you might never know when a true tragic can happen to someone you love. And I know we both laugh at the darkest of things, or bother to care about anyones love ones or family and friends, but deep down we're scared. Isn't that right, Rikkun? We know our secrets, we know our gifts. We both know where we had stand the day that made us fall.

And as for Clay, please take care. I know I may seem as smiley and cheerful like cotton candy clouds, but I'm probably acting so unsure of how to react. For us to take care..I hope you make the right choices.

I hope I do too..
Because Clay, it hurts. It'll leave a big scar in my heart but that's OK. I know I might never be loved by the people I thought..
I might never be accepted into a family. I doubt I'll be successful in life. You..you always showed something great. No matter how much you denied it, someone once had told me you would have a good job..higher than a manager if you could stable it.

And maybe I did want a final dance with you..
Because every time now, when I hear the song, I cry just a little. Because I wanted things to go back like how they use to but I know it'll never happen. That's why I say it's your choice..then my choice. Your choice is the more bigger choice. I can already tell.. You love your family. I get it. That's why I'm not asking anymore...you don't have to see me..

I tried growing my hair, I dunno how it looks anymore. I just gave up..

I'm giving up on myself. All the time. I just don't see myself getting anywhere. Maybe she was right..

So congratulations. You finished all of the tapes.
Do you feel guilt now?..
I know I do..

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Goodbye...