15 Reasons Why | "You Could Save Her?"

Cassette 11: Side B

The fact that some teachers know me made me a little happy. And skittish.

And if these tapes get any shorter I am sorry. Just feels like my time is at it's end. This tape? Who is it for? Let's call this girl Rat. Why?

Didn't pay me back. And obviously she did take some of my belongings.

Anyways, Rat. I met you maybe in 5th up to sophomore year. Isn't that great? Fantastic. I always feel like you had "daddy issues", but never really fucked with it.

Say the time I was with my ex; "Ew you're with him?"
How about Clay? "But he's like so ugly."

Obviously you want a daddy boy who can treat you like a "queen". Which I can get you. But then I wondered why no one in this school would date you.

You were an actual slut. Let me rephrase that! You, Rat, you wore alot of open clothes. You wanted to know dick sizes.

And the fact that this "random man" wanted to date you? More like he just wanted "fun time then run".

I can't believe I get called out when you're the one doing worse.

"I am a child of God," you say.
"You're a child of the dear slut king." I told you. "How rude, you need church in your life." "And you need the Bible."

For crying out, you were so jealous when I was picked favorite from Shawn. OK, he's tall and pretty attractive with his eyes. I'll give him that. He named me "Spidey-girl" after all. Why? Dunno. I've always liked Spider-man anyways. Anyways aside from that! Rat, you always tried to find something I didn't have. Like on the fact I didn't wear makeup. Made fun of my hairstyle. My outfits. You talked how my boyfriend was so filled with disgust- to be honest, Rat, I like that. And its normal for everyone to go through it at least once in their lifetime. You never liked it when he kisses me or hugs me. That's why I always told you-in a joke-"Shut up. That's why you have no dick to play with." And with that, that and go so many ways. That's why I love it.

"My brother is the best" shit. Just stop. No one is "perfectly the best". He's smart I'll give him that. Probably a smart dumbass who has his life figured out at least.

"My brother is in the Army, so he knows almost everything their is to learn about," I said. You rolled your eyes, "Yeah right. He just enlisted or something."
"He won all trophies in his school days. And I have all of them in my place. Top that."
Rat scuffs, "Show off."
"Ass licker."
"Ew!"
"That's what you do. Lick people's asses for you to pass and learn."

Honestly though! Freshmen year, we had a same class. You always went to that smart girl. "Oh hi best friend" "Best friend I don't understand this at all. Can you help me?" Kind of shit! So what, was I not real anymore?

"You look like a boy," Rat would tell me. "At least I can have relationships."

"My family doesn't want me to date certain people."
"Then you're out of my league if I was gay."
"Ew.."
"That's me when I see you in a body dress."
"Shut up! You look like a stick."
"At least I can dress like a normal gal."
"Slut."
"Bitch."
"Hoe."
"Thot."
"I'm not a thot."
"You are now."

And when we did met up in that class, now in Sophomore.

"Hi bitch."
"Sup slut."
"Thought you were joking about this?"
"Thought you'd be a pussy."
"I was told to by my brother. So ha."
"Hmm mmh," I laughed, "I chose to join."
"For your boo."
"I never mentioned him. Don't bring him up."
"I thought you two broke up."
"Hmmmm, small issues but it's cool."
"That's cute," sounding a little annoyed.
"Yup."

I know girl drama, right? Pretty much all the time. Some people consider us to be friends. Me? I'm more of a person she can talk to whenever she feels like it.

You talked so low about my brother. And you wonder why I talk so "shit" to you. Not to your brother, to you. And you know damn well who you are.

Whenever I annoyed you to your limit you'd say, "I'm about to slap you!"
"Do it. You won't."
"I would. But not in school."
"Then meet me."
"Nah, you'd beat my ass anyways. Oh wait no. I would."
The moment I stepped up in your face, you backed off. Completely shutting yourself up. You knew I was changing. And that I was about had it with the school and people here.

I just was so done with it.

Shit talker.