His Broken Testimony: COMPLETED ✅

Chapter 18: Tell Me You Love Me

Bad at love, no, I'm not good at this
But I can't say I'm innocent
Not hardly, but I'm sorry
And all my friends, they know and it's true
I don't know who I am without you
I got it bad, baby
Got it bad
Oh, tell me you love me
I need someone on days like this, I do
On days like this

Omniscient POV

Lacing their fingers together as his body tapped her between himself and the bedding Anthony lost himself in pleasing her without the pleasure of penetration. The self love and beauty she was beginning to find into herself had become lost and long forgot by the words of someone who was suppose to understand and be there for her. It was like the twos relationship had taken a serious backtrack almost putting them that a square one but he wouldn't allow it. It took him this long to have her he wasn't going to let the bitterness of another take that away from him. She was what he needed and vise versus. To break themselves out of this self loathing and depressed state the had been in for so long. Someone finally had seen their hurt they had so desperately tried to hide even from each other. Ryan being a little worst off though.

Over many years of abuse from a parent and a lover had damaged her to the core. Making it hard for anyone even herself to convince her that she deserved better. With her nana , the only person she's felt safety and comfort in , being in such a state it started to feel like she was drowning , suffocating and no one was there to see. Nobody but this man she had belittled and once felt like she was better than. Like he didn't deserve the love he was receiving from the woman that raised her when truly she was one of was undeserving. He stayed and kept his word no matter how many times she pushed and hurt his feelings , seeing something she doesn't see in herself wanting better for her. How could someone who recently came from anything be trying to offer her everything he has and more. She will forever be grateful but in the same breathe she doesn't think she in the position to be able to take and give all that he willy to do for her. He doesn't know her and wanted to be her superman when her own father wouldn't. That was something she couldn't wrap her mind around just yet though she was trying.

Deep down she knew Tony was a good man and wanted to to treat her like a queen as well she protect her but a big part of her was just so against it. Feeling like she wasn't good enough physically and mentally , that he was on a total different level than her and she was unable to catch up. Being damaged goods ,the marks from another man being permanently on her skin along with the memory embedded into her mind. The feeling of soft full lips being pressed against her still damp skin caused her closed eyes to shoot open as her lips slightly parted. With her being the only one naked a the day she was born Ry tried to control her breathing as she stared down at the same young man she has been locked away in this room with for the past couple hours. After the big blow out between the three and she went storming out the back door of Breezy's Cutz the two left. Even though Anthony still had clients to attend to Chris told him he'll handle it and to go fix things with his girl. Once they arrived back at the hotel suite they had left prior Anthony had asked her to strip out of her clothes which she didn't hesitate to do , thinking sex will help her rid the numbness she was staring to feel all over again. But when he didn't follow suit only disappearing into the bathroom she grew confused especially when she heard the water to the bathtub starting to run. Anthony reappeared moments later without saying a word he picked her up off her foot and into his arms. Entering the dim area her eyes watered at the sight. He had lit the the very few candles that were lined out along the edge of the half way filled up tub. The smell of mango hit her nose leaving her to believe that he had added that bath bomb she had been dying to use to her water.