Shawna's POV
"Goodnight Paris!" I waved as the crowd cheered.
I peeled off my costume as I walked offstage.
"Good show kid!" Alfredo said. "I wanted to talk to you about something."
"What is it?" I asked as I put my hair in a messy bun.
"Can Justin come to Italy with us? Well with me, he's gonna fly here to keep me company but only if it's okay with you."
"That's okay," I smiled as I walked toward the bus.
When I got to the bus I checked my phone and Dave hadn't texted me.
"I haven't heard from Dave in 3 days." I frowned.
"Do you really like Dave?" Alfredo asked.
"Why do you ask?"
"I think you just rushed into a relationship without even thinking. It was only 3 weeks and you were onto someone else."
"Why does it matter?" I sat down and put my sore feet up on the couch.
"I think it'd be better if you were single," Alfredo said. "Just being honest." He sat down too.
"I don't need to be single." I started to shout.
"I didn't say you needed to be, I said I think you'd be better off if you were."
"Since when do you get to decide if I date or not?" I yelled.
"Shawna calm down. I'm just sharing my opinion."
I sat there for a few minutes. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled. I really did rush into a relationship. I was just so desperate to be loved by someone and to feel loved that I let the first person catch my attention. I don't know, being in a relationship with Dave just feels weird. I hate to say that I'd be better off with Justin more than anyone in the world. I think it's because I was so used to him and I was used to us. I get so angry for letting him go, I'm sorry." I had tears in my eyes.
"You don't need to be sorry, how about you call Dave and just tell him you're not looking to be in a relationship and tell him not to take it personally cause it's not like you're going back to Justin." Alfredo said.
"Thanks," I stood up and wiped my eyes before picking up my phone and calling Dave.
"Hello?" He answered.
"Hey, can I talk to you?"
"Yeah of course, what's up beautiful?"
I smiled a little, I stared at Alfredo and then began to talk, "I don't think I'm ready for a relationship. And I'm really sorry I'm doing this over the phone but I'm sort of in a different country," I chuckled a little. "But don't take it personally. I wasn't emotionally ready for another relationship when I had the worst breakup. I just rushed into something I wasn't ready for. But I really would love to be friends with you Dave."
"Okay, that's fine with me if it's fine with you. I still really like you Shawna."
"I like you too, just some things don't work out and I'm sorry."
"It's okay, I gotta go. Good bye."
He hung up. I took a deep breath and sat down on the couch. I buried my face in the pillow and started sobbing.
Alfredo came and comforted me, by rubbing my back.
"Why are you crying?!" He asked me.
"I don't know," I cried more, I sat up to face Alfredo. "Have you ever wanted someone so badly that it hurt?"
