APESHIT| Erik Killmonger Story

21.

✨Erik✨

We were back at the hotel and Y/N was wild'n I ain't know what to do with her. She was playing ding dong ditch by herself because I was trying to get high my last night.

She came into the room giggling "you ready to settle down?" I asked smirking at her "it's only 3:30" she said as I laughed and showed her the weed I had as she smirked.

"That's where you fucked up because I don't smoke" she said crossing her arms.
"I only smoke once in a blue moon" I said as she gave me a look. "Lying ass" she said sitting next to me on the bed.

"How if I was in the military?" I asked as she smiled "well I don't I barely even drink tonight was only because I'm going out with a bang." She said as I chuckled "so try it" I suggested.

"No I'm sleepy" she said "now you want to sleep, you was just running around giggling everywhere" I said as she laughed "because I'm tipsy dumb ass that's what I'm going to do" she said taking off her pants throwing them on her suitcase and got under the covers next to me in the bed as I laid on top of the sheets starting to smoke.

Y/N was on her phone as she was on Snapchat talking about something she was watching on BET and I interrupted her by kissing her lips slowly as she kissed back. I pulled away as she had a shocked expression on her face and I just smirked at her going back to what I was doing.

She went back to watching TV as she then looked at me. "Erik" she simply said "hmm" I asked looking at the tv "get under the covers your heavy ass sitting on them." She said as I chuckled and got up I ain't even want the blunt no more so I just flushed it down the toilet then brushed my teeth to get the smell from off my breath.

I took my shirt off and turned out the lights laying next to Y/N as she was just scrolling away on her phone. She then placed her phone down "Don't it feel scary knowing you about to lead a whole country?" She asked and looked over at me.

"I'm good because I know me, and I know for a fact if I do something not right your loud mouth ass going to come at me until I fix it" I joked as she hit my chest playfully.

"Nah But I think we're going to be good especially with you next to me because you'll tell me where I'm wrong at and I'll fix it" I explained as she smiled.

"Before all of this Wakanda thing what did you want to be when you were younger?" She asked as I smiled "a boxer" I said smiling as she smiled.

"What did you want to be?" I asked " I wanted to be a Pediatrician I wanted to work with kids and babies" she explained.

"Why did you stop becoming that?" I asked out of curiosity. "There's a lot into it" she simply said as I turned my head to look at her and she looked back at me.

"No tell me" I said as she faintly smiled

"I stopped because I lost my baby and I just programmed into my head that I wasn't meant to deal with kids nor was I meant to have them so i didn't finish school and I started school for occupational therapy assistant" she explained.

"But that wasn't your fault that was your ex fault, you can't keep blaming that on yourself" I said as she nodded " yeah I know" she simply said.

"What made you not want to be a boxer anymore?" She asked as I shrugged "my pops thought it was all a dream and I should go for something else then he died I joined the military and was set on being king" I explained.

"Dreams can always become reality, you should've never stopped, even if you dad said anything it's always good to believe in dreams" she explained as I listened and smiled.

"It's sad we can have a deep ass conversation when your drunk and I'm half way high" I said as she laughed.

"I know but that's just us we'll be back to arguing in the morning about who hogging up the covers" she said in a giggle.

We both were looking at the tv till Y/N sat up and looked at me smiling. "You good?" I asked in a chuckle as she just kept a smile on her face and didn't say anything.

"I had fun tonight even though it was weird place" she said a giggle as I chuckled "yeah you were the first female that ever wanted a date at the strip club" I said as she smiled.

"Because I'm different, besides you probably enjoyed it" she said laying back down a little closer to me and was on her phone.

"I liked it because you gave me a dance and you looked happy" I said as she smiled.

"Thanks Erik, I had a lot of fun" she said as I smiled "I'm glad you did with your uptight ass" I said as she laughed "whatever go to sleep ugly" she said hitting my chest and turning away from me in the bed.

I turned out the tv and just stared at the back of Y/N's head. I scooted closer to her then moved her hair kissing her shoulder then trailed to her neck. My hands rested on her hips as she grabbed my hand softly.

"Erik go to sleep" she said "no I'm tired of doing this with you Y/N" I said softly "doing what?" She asked "stop being oblivious to the fact I want to be with you, you're not letting me love you" I said as she turned in the bed.

"Erik why we got to keep going through this? I don't want to be in a relationship and you know why, I don't want kids and you know why, why can't you just let it be?" She asked

"Because Y/N you're the first female I've ever fell this hard for and you won't even let me love you" I said "Erik how can i love someone if I don't even know how to love, how can you love me when you're hurting inside?" She asked.

"We'll figure it out that's how a relationship is" I stated "I can't be with you Erik and I'm sorry but I just can't" she said turning back around as I sighed.

"Whatever , you can't even give me an answer with why you can't be with me" I said as she sighed.

"I don't feel the need to get into a relationship because I'm not mentally prepared" she said as I sighed "just let me at least hold you." I said as she looked back at me then turned around facing me as I brought her into my chest then kissed her head.