Devil In Her Heart (John Lennon fanfic)

Chapter 10.

I heard tapping as I turned in bed. I ignored it and pulled a pillow over my head.

"Lucy!" I heard in the distance. I sat up quickly and rubbed my eyes.

3:22 am

I blinked to make sure I read the alarm clock right. I got up and stumbled in the darkness to the window. I pulled back the curtain to see John. He smiled when he saw me. What the fuck?

I pointed to the door and he nodded.

I yawned and walked downstairs, opening the door.

"Wow, ye look terrible." He smiled. I rolled my eyes.

"What do you want?"

He walked inside and looked around.

"Your parents asleep?"

"Gone actually."

He raised his eyebrows.

"They went off on a trip."

"I see. So you're here alone."

I nodded. "Yup...so um..why are you here at three in the morning?"

"I was thinkin of ye."

"At three in the morning?" I crossed my arms and sighed. "John. Go home. Go with your girlfriend."

"Where d'you think I came from?"

I looked down a little upset. "Oh."

"We had sex."

"And I care because??" I shook my head and made my way upstairs. I heard him follow me.

"I couldn't stop thinking of you."

"So your saying while you were on top of Cyn, fucking her brains out, you were thinking of me the entire time? How romantic." I scoffed. I turned a light on in my room.

"Something like that."

"John you told me our kiss was a mistake. You said you regret it! Then in class, you kiss me!?"

"You kissed be back if I remember correctly."

I ignored him and went on. "I don't understand you John. I like you okay? I really really like you. But you make it so easy for me to hate you! You just make me so confused and frustrate..."

He smiled and walked over to me. He pressed his finger over my lips.

"I like ye to love."

I glared at him. "No John. You always sweet talk your way out of a situation and get what you want."

"Do I? Maybe i'm just irresistable."

"Stop being so full of yourself Lennon."

He brushed his fingers through my hair. Despite how angry I was. I was beginning to melt at his touch.

"John...stop." I whispered pulling away.

"You're a tough bird ye know that? I guess that's what I find so attractive about you."

He leaned down and pressed his lips on mine. I pulled back.

"Stop."

"No."

He leaned in again and I pushed him back.

"I said stop. Go back to Cynthia. Go fuck her some more and think of me cause that's the closest you'll ever get me in bed you asshole." I said walking passed him. He looked angry. He pushed me down on the bed and got on top of me, kissing me hard. I pushed away.

"Stop!"

He pinned me down, my arms above my head, and contined kissing me. I had to admit. It was getting me a little hot. It was such a turn on how he took control. I knew he'd never hurt me. I couldn't stand it any longer.

I leaned up and kissed him back. He smirked and straddled me, sliding his hands down my arms. It made my skin tingle. The room became stuffy the more we kissed. He tasted so good. I never wanted it to end. I opened my eyes as he pulled back.

"Why did you say I was yours?" I asked breathlessly.

"Cause ye are."

I shook my head. "No John. I'm not."

He got off and laid next to me. "Why not?"

"Because you already have someone. You can't have two people at the same time John." I said looking at him. He sighed and shook his head.

"Why do things have to be so complicated with you?"

"Cause I have feelings too John. I don't want to get hurt. And neither do you."

I turned on my side, brushing my thumb over his eyebrows. He closed his eyes.

"I don't want to love you." He said. I bit my lip.

"Why not?"

"Cause I know i'll hurt you." 

I knew what he meant.

I got up, turning off the light. He kicked his shoes off and shrugged out of his coat. I pulled the covers over us and snuggled in his arms. He wrapped his arms around me, holding me tight.

"John?"

"Hmm?"

"Do you ever...hurt Cyn?"

He stayed quiet for a few seconds then answered.

"Yes. Yes I do."

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