Devil In Her Heart (John Lennon fanfic)

Chapter 92.

I was laying in bed at home after having dinner with Andrew. It's been a good day to be honest. Promotion, friends, Dinner. It was nice to actually be able to eat again.

I was looking through a folder of papers for work when there was a knock at the door. I shook my head. Fuckin Andrew. I got out of bed and walked to the door, opening it.

"Andrew if you have anything else to...Paul?"

"Heya Luce."

I couldn't help feeling my heart flutter as he looked at me. I blushed a little and fixed my hair quickly and threw my glasses off. He laughed a little to himself.

"Uuh how do you know where I live?"

"I um..I just know." He smiled. "So can I come in?"

"Oh yeah of course." I moved aside, letting him inside..inside my personal life. He looked around and nodded.

"Not bad. I like it. Small and cozy."

"It's um not much but the rent is cheap and it's just a few blocks from work. I um...hi." I smiled. He smiled back and stood in front of me.

"Lucy I..." He pulled me close and hugged me tight. I hugged him back instantly and breathed in his scent. Cigarettes and cologne. We pulled back and looked at each other.

"I never thought i'd see ye again. You just up and left and..I always wondered about you. But now here you are. Standing in front of me...all too real." He said tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. I looked down.

"Can I um, get you something to drink? Coffee, tea, water..."

'Tea would be fine. But um, i'll make it yeah?" He smiled walking to the kitchen. I blushed and sat on the sofa.

"So um, did ye watch us on the Ed Sullivan show!? It was pretty great. I 'ave a feelin it'll go down in history."

I giggled listening to the smugness in his voice.

"No i'm sorry I was busy with work. But hey, why go berserk over the television when I have a Beatle here in my home...making me tea."

He laughed and soon walked over to me with a cup. I set it down and let it cool off. He sat next to me. I looked at him and pushed his hair back, looking at his entire face. He turned red.

"Now there's the Paul McCartney I left behind."

"Yeah well he's still 'ere. You'd be surprised by how many people think we've changed but...we still just as weird." He made a face. I smiled and took a sip from my hot cup, burning my tongue.

"So um, what brings you by?" I asked. "Please tell me the others don't know where I live."

He shook his head. "Don't worry love. I didn't tell a soul. But um, if I may ask, why wouldn't ye want them to know?"

I shrugged. "I dunno. I mean this.." I looked around. "..may not be much but..I worked hard for it. It's become me. It's who I am and...I don't know if I'd be ready to let them in yet. I know it sounds selfish."

"No it doesn't. And don't you ever think it is. I understand what ye mean though. This has become your home now. Where ye can think and come to at the end of the day and only let in people who you truly feel comfortable with. People that are worth your time."

I smiled and placed my hand on his arm.

"Which is why I let you in."

We just looked at each other and smiled. He set his cup down and pulled me close. I rested my head on his chest as he hummed. I recognized the song. We stayed like this until I sang along.

"I'll pretend that I'm kissing

The lips I am missing

And hope that my dreams will come true

And then while I'm away

I'll write home every day

And I'll send all my loving to you"

I looked up at him as I sang the last part. He smiled and brushed my bangs away from my eyes.

"Wow. I never realised how beautiful your voice is...it sounds different coming from a womans tone. So...pure and sensual."

I smiled and watched as he leaned down, kissing me softly. I felt my body tingle as our lips moved in unison. Our tongues barely brushing against one anothers. His hand cupping the side of my face. My hands resting on his chest as we pulled back.

"I missed you."

"And I missed you Paul."

We smiled and resumed kissing until our lips were sore. It was just a kiss but to me, that's all I needed.

"Lucy?"

"Hmm?"

"Please let me hold you tonight. I just want to hold you in my arms again and...let you know everything will be okay. Because ye never know what could happen." 

I smiled to myself and couldn't help feeling tears well up in my eyes. I looked down.

"Did you see the pills?"

He looked down and nodded. "Stu took those exact same ones. I just...I don't want to lose ye."

I sighed and stroked the side of his face. "I'll be fine Paul. It could be nothing."

"Well, just in case...I want to be here. Please let me."

I stood up and reached for his hand. He stood up and squeezed my hand in his gently.

"You can stay until the very end." I whispered, leading him to the bedroom.

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