Devil In Her Heart (John Lennon fanfic)

Chapter 111.

I sat on my bed staring at my pills. It's been six days since I stopped taking them. Now I regreted it. My head was throbbing all evening, I even stayed in the hotel as the guys went off to perform. Just one more day. Then I'll be home. I just have to stick through this one night and I'll be fine.

I grabbed the phone and dialed, waiting to hear his voice. I smiled as he answered.

"Yellow."

"Yellow? Really Andrew?"

"Hey Luce! How are you!?"

"Andrew please don't yell. And to be honest, I'm not well."

"What d'you mean!? What's wrong!? Should I come over!?" He said sounding worried. I giggled.

"No Andrew i'll be fine for tonight. But um, when we come over tomorrow, I want out. I'm not fit to be out anymore. I just feel tired."

"Have you been taking your pills?"

I paused but answered quietly. "N..no."

"Lucy Michelle Daniels!"

"I'm sorry I just got carried away with the partying and hanging out."

"Lucy Lucy Lucy. I'll get someone else to finish the assignment then okay? You can just work here at the office...where I can keep an eye on you." He said sounding stern. I sighed but was grateful for his concern.

"Thank you Andrew. I appreciate it. I love you."

"I love you too Lucy. Look I was thinking that, when you come back tomorrow, we can see a movie? As colleagues of course."

I smiled to myself and bit my lip. "Okay Andrew. I can't wait to go out with you. I've just been so homesick."

I looked up to see John walk into the room, looking a little upset. I hurriedly pushed the small bottles under a pillow.

"I'm glad you're coming back to me. I'll see you tomorrow then." He said sounding happy.

"Bye Andrew. Good night."

"Good night. Take those pills."

"Okay okay." I giggled. "Bye."

We hung up. I set the phone down and looked at John.

"Everything okay?"

"Who's Andrew?" He asked, sitting on the bed.

"My boss." I said scratching my arm.

"Really. Then why are you going out with him tomorrow?"

"How did you.."

"The door was slightly open."

"How much did you hear?" I asked a bit nervously.

"All of it. So, were you planning on telling me you were going to just leave? Or were you just going to vanish like ye did in February?"

"Of course I was going to tell you John. I just needed to find a way to tell you I wasn't coming along anymore."

"What about everything we shared!?"

"What the sex, partying and more sex!? John you knew this wasn't going to evolve into anything else!"

"Fine just go! Leave like ye always do when there's a real problem!"

"John I'm not running away from anything this time! What we shared these past few days wasn't love! It was just lust!"

He scoffed and shook his head. "To think I even tried loving you again."

I froze and looked at him. "T..tried?"

"Ye think out of nowhere I was just gonna fall in love with you all over again!? You think ANY of us are in love with you!? Wake up Lucy! For awhile there I thought that maybe, just maybe you changed into a mature, sweet, loving women but you know what!? You're a bitch! A cold hearted bitch who just loves to mess with other peoples emotions! I've cried so many months for you and I'll be damned if I go through all of it again!"

I felt the tears welling up in my eyes as he glared at me. I shook my head. "John I..I don't know what to say."

"Don't say anything. It's better you don't." He made his way to the door and stopped, looking back at me. "When you leave tomorrow..." he wiped his tears. "I hope it's the last time I ever see you again."

"John wait." I said walking towards him. He just ignored me and walked out, slamming the door shut. I sighed and stared at the floor, wiping my tears.

...

The plane ride to New York was dreadful. I sat next to Michelle, she held my hand as we got glares from Jane. I knew she was loving every minute of my sadness. George was quiet as he sat next to John. He must have told him everything.

When we landed, I waited as everyone else got off. The sound of screaming girls in the distance as I just sat and stared at the floor.

"Lucy...please talk to me." Michelle said rubbing my arm. I shook my head and sighed.

"There's nothing to talk about anymore. It's best things are this way. He moves on, I move on. Life goes on."

"You love him."

"I do but...sometimes it's better to just let things go and start new. I can't be chasing after something that isn't there anymore."

She nodded and kissed my cheek. "Come on. Let's go. We can get lunch and hey, maybe you can let me meet that cute boss of yours you were talking to me about." She smiled and nudged me with her elbow, making me giggle.

"That sounds great. Mind if we um, head to my place first? Just so I can drop off my stuff."

She nodded and held my hand as we made our way off the plane. We walked to one of the waiting vehicles and got inside. I looked out the window to see the guys making their way the opposite direction. I made eye contact with John as he watched the car leave until we were completely out of his sight.

....