Falling

Chapter 67

Selena~after Simon talked to us we kind of lost all our happiness from winning our award. "we have to leave the boys" i whisperd. "i know" Carmen said back. "i dont want to though" "me neither" "should we tell the boys?" "i dont know they will be heart broken" she said. "i know" "should we wait to tell them?" Carmen asked. "i think we should. I mean look at them, they are happy right now. we dont want to ruin that. do we?" "no we shouldnt" "so when should we tell them acouple weeks before we leave?" "Maybe" "okay then we have to make the most of these 4 months" "i know" she said. "okay come on they are waitin for us" we put on out smiles and walke up to them. They all looked at us and hugged us. "so after party?" Harry said putting his arm around Carmen. "YEAH!" Louis yelled. and we all lauged at him and left. Niall had put his arm around my shoulder, but not in a boyfriendy way. "okay come on guys!" Niall said and we all headed out. Luke looked a littke jelous but im over it, and he should get over it to. We all got in the limo and we left. we got to the house and when we walked in everyone yelled and higged us. "hey guys" i said and hugged Eloanor and Sophie. "Hey" they said back. Alot of people were here, even some famous people that Carmen and i havent even met yet. Ed Sheeran, Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez, Justing Beiber, Bruno Mars, Olly Murs, Ariana Grande, Lana Del Ray, and Ellie Goulding were here. "Hello ladys congrats on your award" Ed said. Carmen and i almost freaked out. "thank you" we said hugging him. "Im going to go say hi to Lana shes my idol!" Carmen said once she saw Lana. "well then" Ed said taken aback. "oh please Ed shes my girl idol!" "okay" he said. "bye guys" Carmen said running up to Lana. Ed and i laughed. "so were you nervous?" Ed asked me. "yes oh my i almost died" i said all dramtic. he laughed. "so you should text me one day and we could write a song together" Ed said after a while of talking. "yes of course! i would love to write a song with one of my favorite artists" "one? i thought i was your favorite" he laughed. "well i like a lot of music so of course i have more than one favorite artist" "okay then so i'll text you later?" "yeah" i said as we went different directions. i walked up to Luke and the rest of 5SOS. "Hey Sel" Ash said looking up at me since he was sitting on the couch. "Hey guys, what are you guys talking about?" "Umm...nothing" Micheal said but i could tell he was lieing. "oh come on you cant lie to me! now tell me!" "umm we rather not" Cal said and all the boys were checking me out. "Luke you didnt" "umm-i-i" "whatever, i dont care go ahead and tell them about my sex life" i said i got up nad walked away. WTF?! i know guys like to go around and tell there friends about the girls they had sex with but i though Luke was different. Like come on he told my friends and now they are goig to think of me differently. You know what i dont give a fuck! I went to the kitchen and grabbed some shots. Downing like three. i went out and looked for the One Direction boys. i saw Niall making out with Demi. i dont know why but at the pit of my stumache i had a weird feeling. Jelousy? no i doubt it he doesnt like me. i mean he's making out with his celebrity crush, why would he want me? i looked around again and found Liam and Louis talking. "hey guys" i said going il to them. "hey Sel, enjoying the party?" "sort of" i said and looked up at them. "why what happend i prefer not to talk about it, so can we move on from this subject?" "yeah sure" then we all starte talking about random stuff and joked around. "well im going to go upstairs" i said. "why?" "im getting kind of tired been a long and exciting day" i said. the nodded and i went upstairs. "wait" someone said grabbing my arm. i turned around to see Luke. "what?" i spat at him. "im sorry i didnt mean to" "you didnt mean to tell the boys about the sex we had yeah okay" i said sarcasticaly. "no that not what i-" "you know what Luke im over it go ahead tell the world i dont care anymore so leave it all alone okay? now im going upstairs" i said pulling my arm away from his grasp and walking up to my room. i got in and changed. i grabbed my headphones then i went out on my balcony that was conected to my room. i climed on to the roof and just layed there looking at the stars. I put in my headphones and put my playlist on shuffle and 'Jasey Rae by All Time Low' came on. i hummed it then i was singing it. "Dont make this easy i want you to mean it, Jasey. (Say you'll mean it) You're depressed to kill, i'm calling you out (dont waste your time on me)" after a while i climbed down and went to my bed and fell asleep with me headphones in.