Falling

Chapter 84

Carmen~ I couldn't sleep. The thought of Harry leaving like that killed me. *Flashback* "So..you're leaving?" He cracked almost crying. I nodded with tears. Of course, knowing how stupid I am in these situations. "Why didn't you tell me?" He asked sternly with tears staring at me. "I don't know Harry." I said trying to calm him down but he stood up throwing his hands up. "Don't Harry me. So that night, when we were in the car. You knew?" He began to question me. "Yes." I said silently. He threw his hands and hit the wall. He stood facing the wall silently. I sat on the edge of the bed. He had every right to be mad. "How long?" He asked and I looked at him. "Since the VMA's." I whispered and he began to hit everything in his way. I stood up and grabbed his hands forcing him to look at me. "Harry. STOP!" I yelled into his eyes crying. He stopped and began to cry more. He wiped his hands away. "Have a nice life." He said opening the door then looking at me sadly. Then he left. That's when I knew it was all over.

"Carmen. Carmen." I heard someone shake me. I wanted to die. I'm such a bad person. "Harry?" I cracked hoping and praying that it was him. That he forgave me and that we wouldn't have to leave no more. But of course, happy endings only happen for good people, right? "Sigh. No Carmen it's me Selena. Get ready. We'll be late for our flight." She said softly and quickly leaving the room. I groaned and looked around my bed. No sign of him. No curly hair, or his bright eyes looking at me when I wake up. Or that cheeky smile he made when he thought of something dirty. No more. No more him. I sat on my bed with his shirt on and grabbed my blue jeans, and a grey sweater. I didn't want to get dressed. I looked around my room. The boys took everything to the at last night. All we have to do is to load up 2 bands, and 2 helpless girls. All it's missing is two guys. I walked downstairs with a bun and converse seeing everyone almost opening the door. "Ready?" Liam asked gulping. He wanted to cry it seemed. I nodded. We all walked out of the house and into the car. As Liam started the engine I took a good last glampse of the house, of memories, love, tears, fights. We were going to miss it. Selena was crying silently but hysterically as Luke patted her back. As we drove, a tear drop fell down my cheek.

As every flight was being called in the intercoms I was literally dying. My body was shacking. I couldn't stop this anxiety. Calum hugged me as I cried. The boys honestly, i never have seen them cry, we're crying. "We're going to miss you guys." Ashton sniffed. Selena slightly laughed through those tears and gave Ashton a squeeze. I couldn't stop crying. I hugged Calum tighter. "It's ok." Calum slightly laughed and kissed my forehead. I wanted to stay but I knew it was too late. "Did they answer?" Selena stood up excitedly as Louis came back with his phone in his hand but with a frown on his face. "No." He gulped and Selena fell back tears forming in her eyes again. He had every right to be mad. And I'm pretty sure Selena felt the same with Niall. "Flight23. Flight 23 is now boarding." The lady at the desk announced and my whole body wanted to start a tantrum. I wanted to scream, yell, throw things until I got what I wanted like a child again. "No!" Selena cried hysterically in Luke's chest. We stood up and did a group hug. These boys meant the world to me. I loved them. It's just to hard to love something but then let it go. Now I understand what they all meant, when they made songs or said something like that, but I always thought it was just another quote, a teen thought that was clever and made photos of to become the next huge quote that you hear around school. Now I know, it's from experience. I didn't want to know this way. It feel it. "We love you guys." Me and Selena said as we cried with them. "Don't forget us when you guys are big." Zayn smiled trying to lighten up. "We won't." I laughed. "Girls. It's time." Our body guard said and we hugged them tightly one more time. "We love you guys." Michael for the first time, I've ever seen cry. "We love you guys too." We said and the body guards began to walk us to the gate. We looked back at the boys who cried and waved with forced smiles. We waved back and the minute I stepped into the hallway no longer seeing those cheeky, cute, lovely faces, I broke. I covered my mouth, and walked to my seat. Selena was gasping for air. She had cried so hard she couldn't breath. Once we found our seat, we broke. "I miss them." I cried and Selena hugged me. I stared out the window. The sunrise hit our faces, showing the city. So many memories came back, all at once, but with different feelings of love. I smiled. This wasn't the last we'll see them. But I didn't want to leave. "Selena?" I asked still crying. "Yeah." She asked crying too. "This isn't the last time we'll see them right?" I asked and she sniffed. "Of course not." She said and I got up as she released. I wonder where was Harry. I know he was mad but he didn't come to see me? I cried more of the thought of that. "Ok ladies and gentlemen, time for lift off. Turn off all phones or electronics and please buckle up. Other than that have a nice flight." The flight attendant said in the speaker. I grabbed my phone, and the shock on my face was priceless. 28 messages from Harry. I quickly opened them. The one last I read and most recent read,"I Love You. Don't Forget that." I turned off my phone and cried as we took lift off. Too late. I looked at Selena who had her phone. Seemed like Niall did the same. I laid my head back and stared at the sun as we flew. It hit my face. This wasn't the last time we'd see them, I know for sure. But will it be the same as we meet? Hopefully, but for now it seemed that all I know is, I'm Carmen, from Ireland, and I loved one boy, had one sister, 8 brothers, and a flight to L.A...