twins ~ j.m.b (UNFINISHED)

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I stood there in pure silence. I could hear the blood pulsating around my body as my head began to feel light

"Uh, I should go" Jay stayed, scurrying out of the room

What was wrong with me? Like seriously, I somehow ruin everything. I can remember asking myself years ago;

Is picking between twins hard?

I can remember telling myself no. God how naive I was. It's a fucking nightmare. My mind screamed Jay but my heart sang Joey

It wasn't fair. Why me? Why did they have to weave themselves back into my life?

My thoughts make me sick as I droopily walked to my bed. I didn't want to be here nor be at home. Neither was better than the other

The house was silent, I couldn't even hear anything downstairs. It was as if I was alone in my own little, tarnished world

The time was now 9:36 pm and I was laid contemplating my whole life. For some strange reason, I wasn't crying and it was beyond me why I wasn't

I'd expected myself to bawl my eyes out if anything happened between Joey and I yet here I am, seeming unbothered by it all

I knew I couldn't stay here, drowning in my sorrows that didn't dare make themselves apparent on me so I decided to go out

I put on a pair of skinny jeans and a hoodie, grabbing money and my phone and leaving the house going unnoticed

I walked and walked until I came across a club. It burned memories of Joey and I into my head but I approached it anyway. Not having my ID, I slipped in when the bouncer wasn't paying attention

It was full of girls in skimpy dresses, couples and other random people out for a good time. Meanwhile I on the other hand was dressed scruffily, with no arm candy or a happy aura around me

I traipsed over to the bar, immediately ordering myself 3 shots. I downed them straight away hoping they would somehow remove this night from my memory

I payed for drink after drink until the bartender refused my requests. I groaned in my drunken state, now hanging over the bar

"Can I buy you a drink?" A boy asked

I nodded eagerly to his question. He looked around my age, blonde with hazel eyes

"Jack?" He asked

I nodded again

"2 shots of Jack Daniels please" he asked the bartender

We were served and I hung my head in my hands, trying to rid of the dizziness. He handed me the shot

"Ready?"

I picked the small glass up, clinking it with his before drinking the cool liquid. It burnt my throat as it travelled down to my stomach but it was a feeling I was now used to

I felt myself go dizzier and dizzier but I blamed it on the alcohol context that swirled in my stomach. My throat became dry and my eyes began to shut

I tried to keep them open but failed, walking towards the door of the club before my consciousness was sucked out of me

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