𝐡𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐭𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬 | 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐱 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫

self-love | no ship

♡GAYISH♡POSSIBLE TRIGGER♡ ♡VITILIGO!HERCULES♡

hercules mulligan
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january 24th, 2019
•this whole journal thing is stupid. so what if i hate my vitiligo? it doesn't mean that i need help or something. the therapists are hella stupid for thinking i need help. i don't. like jesus, just let me hate myself in peace.
-h.m.

march 2nd, 2019
•okay when i said this was stupid, i meant like hella stupid, but i didn't think it would come to this. this as in meds. meds. yes. meds. meds as in literal medication. i have one therapist now. his name is dr. burr. i don't like him very much.
-h.m.

march 18th, 2019
•i literally hate dr. burr. he's a jerk. he makes me feel worse about myself then i felt when i started this whole thing. mom said she'll get me a new one. his name is dr. lafayette, i think.
-h.m.

march 27th, 2019
•dr. lafayette is cool. he gives me blue raspberry suckers after each session even though i'm almost 18.
-h.m.

april 7th, 2019
•okay so maybe this whole journal thing isn't so bad, but i don't get how it'll help my self improvement. writing stuff down doesn't make me like my vitiligo anymore. it's still just me.
-h.m.

may 14th, 2019
•dr. lafayette had me do an exercise where i had to compare photos of different people and say which one was uglier. (he didn't say ugly though. he's nice, i promise.) when it came down to the person i thought was the ugliest, he set down a photo of me. he asked me who was prettier. not to be conceded, but i picked myself. the other dude was ugly, man.
-h.m.

june 3rd, 2019
•for the first time in a while, i actually looked into the mirror. like yeah, i look into the mirror when i'm getting ready, but this time i actually looked. i didn't mind what i saw. it was just me. i'm not that weird, now that i think about it.
-h.m.

july 15th, 2019
•okay i got the balls and i asked hamilton on a date. he declined. i wasn't hurt though. i mean i'm not sure what his intentions were, but if it was because of my skin, i could care less. i don't want to be around someone who drags me down.
-h.m.

august 5th, 2019
•dr. lafayette said that i might not need therapy anymore. why do i feel uneasy?
-h.m.

september 10th, 2019
•i don't need therapy. i don't want to admit that.
-h.m.

october 6th, 2019
•why am i so upset over it being over?
-h.m.

march 12th, 2019
i am happy with myself
i do love myself
and i deserve love, as well
i will not take hate
not anymore
i would like to thank my family
and dr lafayette
they helped me on this journey
i'd be dead without them
thank you so much
so in conclusion to all of these
"stupid"
"hella stupid"
journals
i have self-love
and so should you.
-h.m.