CORDIVILLA: Breathless

Chapter 28

Chapter 28

"Get out of here, Stanford. I am not going to talk to you." Iritado at malamig na sinabi ko.

Hindi ako makatingin ng diretso sa kaniyang mga mata. Alam kong nakatitig siya sa akin. Mas humigpit din ang yakap niya dahil kanina ko pa pinipilit na makalaya sa higpit ng pagkakayapos niya sa aking katawan.

"Kumusta ang pakiramdam mo?" Aniya, hindi binigyang atensyon ang aking unang tinuran.

I badly want to scream at him. To expose to him what I am feeling. To demand him answers to my queries. But I am lost in thoughts, his cologne stole my proper sense over things. His tight hug made my knees tremble and I wanted to just stay confined in his unyielding arms.

"Why don't you go out and talk to Ivy... I'm sure you'd enjoy her company more." I said more coldly this time.

I heard him took a sharp breath. I should feel cold because I am not sporting anything aside from my underwear but Stan's body is like a shelter from the cold midair.

Hindi siya nagsalita. Mas inilapit niya lang ang kaniyang mukha sa aking leeg at doon huminga. Sumikip ang dibdib ko at pumikit ng mariin. Hinawakan ko ang kaniyang kamay.

I tried to detach it from my waist but his control is too strong for my infirm arm. I felt my nails dug in his arm but I didn't care.

"Kaya siguro tayo sumama rito dahil pupunta siya..." punong puno ng pait ang boses ko.

I didn't mean that. It's just that I'm feeling so exasperated and bitter inside because of the interminable views in my mind. It keeps pouring like rain! I want to stop thinking about it pero hindi ako makapag-isip ng maayos kapag si Stan na 'yon.

"Where the fuck did that bullshit came from?" Marahas na tanong niya.

Suminghap ako nang masuyo niyang hinawakan ang aking pisngi at pilit iniharap sa kaniya. His gentle movement is far different from his dark and angry countenance. He looks so mad and threatening.

His eyes are also like the ocean under the lights. I feel like drowning as I blankly stare at them. Ang tanging nakapitan ko para sa suporta ay ang kamay niyang nakapulupot sa aking baywang. I gripped on it like my strength depends on it.

"It's true! Kaya tayo sumama rito dahil narito si Ivy! And you're angry all throughout the day because she's with Terrance!" Bulyaw ko at kinagat ang labi.

I heard him cursing so hard under his breath. Sumisikip ang dibdib ko. It's like he's keeping his women some sort of secret! I can't help but act like an immature lady because inside me I know I am afraid! I am threatened with his past habits I hate the most!

I love him. I'm blatantly admitting it now. Who won't fall for him? Who won't fall for this mysterious but exquisite mortal? Regardless of the fear of getting damaged again, I still let myself fall so hard!

And I am afraid that this daydream will end too soon. We haven't started yet, pero pakiramdam ko matatapos kami ng wala pang nasisimulan.

"Whatever's in that pretty little head of yours, those are fallacies." He whispered hardly in my ear.

I held a deep sharp breath and looked at him in the eye. He looks like some Greek god in some books and movies I have encountered. And just like how I fall for those fictional beings, I fell for a real one.

I fell for this one. Mighty. Mysterious. Striking. And fucking breathtaking... I must be hallucinating or dreaming because everything feels illusory.

"Ang dami mong babae..." I whispered faintly and look away.

The toughest part of being in love without a guarantee from the other person is that, the dread of being rejected because there are billions of people in this world, and you're not the only one in his eyes.