Daughter Of Chaos

CHAPTER 39: Not okay... Just coping

Percy POV

I opened her room door and found her hyperventilating as Jack, mom and dad were trying to wake her up.

She eventually woke up and began crying, "Nattie you are going to have to speak." Jack said, "What do you want me to say, you all already know what is bothering me." She cried, "We know what's bothering you but you are going to have to say it." Jack begged, "I can't." She breathed, "You have to, that's the only way to get over this phase, you are going to have to say what is going on with you dear, then maybe you will find some sleep." Mother cupped her cheek, "I can't, just thinking about it makes me sick." She cried.

"Try, we are all here to listen to you." Dad said, she then spotted Triton and I by the door, "Talking always helps and you can tell us anything." I said as I sat on the bed and she sighed. "I can't sleep anymore, every time I go sleep I don't dream about weird looking food anymore or anything I want to dream about. I keep dreaming about that day, what if Aether came too late- what if he had never come- then?" She broke down.

"Every night this is not the only thing that is bothering me, I keep on dreaming about someone putting me in chains and torturing me, I so badly would have loved to take sleeping tablets to help me find sleep but if I do then it will be hard for me to wake up from the nightmares I would be having. And that what happened with Antonio was not me, I would never ever hurt anybody to such an extent, I feel so bad. I should not have done that, maybe if I was a little bit more patient none of that would have happened. Then there is my fight with Annabeth which I don't even know whether I am going to win. Violence and I used to be like oil and water and now we are like coffee and milk." Her eyes turned into a sea green colour.

"Nattie, try to speak with a calm mind. I know it's hard but try." Jack said worried, she looked up and it looked like she was calming herself down, dad just looked intently into her eyes and they slowly changed back to their original colour. Dad looked like he was going through his own train of thoughts and Jack just looked at him, dad had a face of shock and Jack shook his head slightly to not make it noticeable. When he realised I was looking at him he quickly changed his expression, "Continue dear." Dad said in a shaking voice.

"What I did to Antonio you must have recognised it, it's from the anime Naruto, Genjustu. That is the most worst and evil thing you can put a person through, I don't know how I created that. It's like these episodes define how I feel, I wanted to hurt him so bad and I did, but... I should apologise when I meet him again. I feel like I am becoming bad...like...*sigh* it's true when they say curiosity killed the cat, all this began with my curiosity- if had just been patient enough. You know what? I am so sorry for throwing my lava on you, so sorry..." She apologised while crying and mom pulled her into a hug.

"Let it all out dear, don't stop crying. Just let it all out and you will feel lighter." Mother said as she rubbed her back and she cried louder. Till today I had not noticed that all the changes in her life had been affecting her so badly, my heart just broke down to see her cry like this. She then parted from mother, "I'm sorry, but is it too late to go late at night like this. I need some air?" She asked and mother shook her head, "But you have to go with someone, just in case you meet an unfriendly sea creature." Dad said, "Oh no, I am not going far away, I am just going outside." She said and mother gave her a nod with a smile.

She swam out of the room, "She is not coping with all this." Jack said with a hurt expression and disappeared. I felt suffocated, I wanted to help her but there was nothing I could do. Mother came and sat next to me, she engrossed me in a hug, "I know what your are going through but I don't know how you feel. All I can advise you is that you can only help her by being there for her." Mom said and I wrapped my arms around her for comfort.